ETA

I'm about 3 1/2 weeks without a drink. The last few days have pretty much sucked. I'm grumpy, oversensitive and exhausted.

Tonight I went to a dinner party - all the people there are my foodie friends - having artisan cheese and drinks with things like cucumber and mint from the garden. Of course there was a great selection of wine and beer.

I brought my own bottle of soda water. At one point someone took some to make a drink with - normally that would be completely ok - tonight it made me super pissy.

I was incredibly tempted. I was seriously thinking "oh I can have just one" ... I couldn't (still can't) remember why can't I just have one?

I'm home now and I didn't drink. I don't feel proud or anything... just cranky.

thanks for letting me vent.

:-/

Terminally Unique

Your body is probably still returning to normal. It took me about two or three months to feel somewhat normal. Hopefully it won't take you that long, but hang in there, or you may have to start over again.

Dee74

The whole crux of my problem is I can't have one.

One becomes many, and I'm likely to either do appalling and stupid things, or hurt myself, or hurt someone else.

I'll simply never be sure what will happen to me after I take that first drink, and I refuse to live like that anymore.

Unfair or not, I know I'm better off sober - I suspect you are too ETA

Latte

I still get grumpy sometimes. I am really grumpy right now. My back hurts and the stuff I have doesn't knock me on my butt, it just dulls the pain. Mind you, I caused the pain by an extra hard workout .....see where this is going?

I throw myself a small pity party like you just posted, and put my big girl panties on and then remember that they aren't so big anymore because I've lost ton of weight!

See, you are starting to see the flicker of light at the end of the tunnel. 3.5 weeks is awesome. Congratulations!

SSIL75

I can relate to how you were feeling It was helpful for me to tell myself that my discontent at not drinking was yet another symptom of my alcoholism. Normal people can take or leave booze.

ETA

Thanks all. What you posted is exactly what I need to hear.

I am happy I made it through. It's amazing the tricks my brain was playing - I'm not sure what stopped me.


And yes it was a pity party... It still might be going on - we'll see once I wake up a bit more

recoverywfaith

Glad you posted and made it thru to another sober day...congrats!!

SASA

well your pity party would be really bad if you would have picked up. Think on how much your life would suck bu now. I was at a pool party yesterday where everybody had wine and beer and I had diet coke. I was not necessarily miserable, but reminded me that if I would have 1 I would finish a bottle. Having just 1 is not an option for me.