1st meeting for over 2yrs
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1st meeting for over 2yrs
hey everyone,
ive got my first AA meeting since late 2008 tonight and im feeling all sorts of emotions, im scared and worried, anxious, frustrated but also a little excited to be going.
i no i need the support and there is no way i can do this on my own, ive tried and failed time after time. so this time, a couple of years older and wiser im going to try again, so i will sit and listen and maybe try to share if i think im ready, i would like to find out about a sponsor too, im thinking that could seriously help me?
ive still got a phone number of a guy i meet in AA the first time round, do you think i should call him to reasure me a bit, will he still in the programe though, i dont know??
ive got my first AA meeting since late 2008 tonight and im feeling all sorts of emotions, im scared and worried, anxious, frustrated but also a little excited to be going.
i no i need the support and there is no way i can do this on my own, ive tried and failed time after time. so this time, a couple of years older and wiser im going to try again, so i will sit and listen and maybe try to share if i think im ready, i would like to find out about a sponsor too, im thinking that could seriously help me?
ive still got a phone number of a guy i meet in AA the first time round, do you think i should call him to reasure me a bit, will he still in the programe though, i dont know??
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Hi Fletch,
Good for you. My suggestion is to just go.
Guaranteed, you will recognize people at the meeting and you know also then, that these are people serious about giving up drink.
I first attended AA in 2006 and now have almost 9 months sober.
Do however, listen and follow the 12 steps. Meetings are wonderful and the fellowship alone will help you quit.
To stay quit however, you have to start a long and sometimes difficult process of changing your behaviour, thinking, company etc.
It will be so wonderful though.
Read the Big Book from cover to cover. You can do this at night, a few pages at a time.
Some of the meetings will make you want to drink!
You won't agree with everything, but keep an open mind.
Well, it's not like our way was working, so what have you to loose?
I found the "Higher Power thing very frustrating. How was I supposed to "get" one of those?
I buckled this time and just got on my knees and said whatever came into my mind.
Eventually, I found it easy and helpful and then suddenly, I lost the desire to drink.
But, that happened before. I didn't continue with meetings as i was "cured".
I was not. Then after 2 years sober, I drank more than ever. I spent 1 1/2 yrs trying to stop this time.
Good luck and spend time here reading. You don't have to reinvent the wheel.
You will find great comfort from the meetings and I truly believe that I had to have every drink I had. No regrets.
Do not plan any grand finales! Your last drink will sneak up on you. It doesn't come with trumpets playing and no-one will hold a parade. I do kind of have little parades in my head now and again!
Keep posting, don't tell all your friends about this site. If they find it, fine.
It is for you to come and feel relaxed. You don't need your friends reading all your stuff and knowing it is you. Also, don't get to detailed on the open threads as it is a PUBLIC forum and don't get upset if you read something that you find hurtful or insulting, as it is everyone just expressing how they feel and that is what the site is for. I have engaged in a few arguments in the beginning, and it is not a good idea.
Ok, going back to read more posts now. Great place.
:day6
Good for you. My suggestion is to just go.
Guaranteed, you will recognize people at the meeting and you know also then, that these are people serious about giving up drink.
I first attended AA in 2006 and now have almost 9 months sober.
Do however, listen and follow the 12 steps. Meetings are wonderful and the fellowship alone will help you quit.
To stay quit however, you have to start a long and sometimes difficult process of changing your behaviour, thinking, company etc.
It will be so wonderful though.
Read the Big Book from cover to cover. You can do this at night, a few pages at a time.
Some of the meetings will make you want to drink!
You won't agree with everything, but keep an open mind.
Well, it's not like our way was working, so what have you to loose?
I found the "Higher Power thing very frustrating. How was I supposed to "get" one of those?
I buckled this time and just got on my knees and said whatever came into my mind.
Eventually, I found it easy and helpful and then suddenly, I lost the desire to drink.
But, that happened before. I didn't continue with meetings as i was "cured".
I was not. Then after 2 years sober, I drank more than ever. I spent 1 1/2 yrs trying to stop this time.
Good luck and spend time here reading. You don't have to reinvent the wheel.
You will find great comfort from the meetings and I truly believe that I had to have every drink I had. No regrets.
Do not plan any grand finales! Your last drink will sneak up on you. It doesn't come with trumpets playing and no-one will hold a parade. I do kind of have little parades in my head now and again!
Keep posting, don't tell all your friends about this site. If they find it, fine.
It is for you to come and feel relaxed. You don't need your friends reading all your stuff and knowing it is you. Also, don't get to detailed on the open threads as it is a PUBLIC forum and don't get upset if you read something that you find hurtful or insulting, as it is everyone just expressing how they feel and that is what the site is for. I have engaged in a few arguments in the beginning, and it is not a good idea.
Ok, going back to read more posts now. Great place.
:day6
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One more thing Fletch,
Don't rush out and get a sponsor tonight.
We are not the brilliant judges of character that we think!
Take your time and get to know people.
Go to different meetings and find a good fit for a group or 2 and a sponsor.
My first sponsor went psycho on me and I just started working with someone now.
You can rely on different people for advice and support in the meantime.
Don't rush out and get a sponsor tonight.
We are not the brilliant judges of character that we think!
Take your time and get to know people.
Go to different meetings and find a good fit for a group or 2 and a sponsor.
My first sponsor went psycho on me and I just started working with someone now.
You can rely on different people for advice and support in the meantime.
Forward we go...side by side-Rest In Peace
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I'm really glad you will be returning to AA....
Yes... the STeps are when I switched from shakey sobriety into solid recovery ..they are the AA program...
With that idea...I suggest ou check out Step meetings ..that's usually where sponsors can be found.
Yes... the STeps are when I switched from shakey sobriety into solid recovery ..they are the AA program...
With that idea...I suggest ou check out Step meetings ..that's usually where sponsors can be found.
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well i went to my first meeting lastnight...... and it went really well 
the hardest part was getting through the front door, luckily there were two members waiting outside, they greeted me with open arms, took me in, got me a coffee and sat me down with them.
i was still very nervous but a lot more calm than i had previously been.
The guest speaker was amazing and so funny, we spent most of the meeting laughing, i coulnt belive it, it made me feel so comfortable, i was one of them and they all excepted me for who i am.
i didnt share this time, i just wanted to listen. but next time i just might.
i was given a handful of phone numbers at the end and some reading material, i was even given a copy of the pocket sized Big Book! i am now attempting to read the first 164 pages as recommended.
im so pleased i went and am going to continue going
the hardest part was getting through the front door, luckily there were two members waiting outside, they greeted me with open arms, took me in, got me a coffee and sat me down with them.
i was still very nervous but a lot more calm than i had previously been.
The guest speaker was amazing and so funny, we spent most of the meeting laughing, i coulnt belive it, it made me feel so comfortable, i was one of them and they all excepted me for who i am.
i didnt share this time, i just wanted to listen. but next time i just might.
i was given a handful of phone numbers at the end and some reading material, i was even given a copy of the pocket sized Big Book! i am now attempting to read the first 164 pages as recommended.
im so pleased i went and am going to continue going
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Join Date: Nov 2008
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Day 6 and still going strong. reading the Big book is really helping me too, things seem to make so much sense now, i would defiantly recommend it to anyone who is trying to understand this disease we have.
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