introducing myself
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introducing myself
Hello everyone,
I'm Matt.
This feels weird and I don't know where to begin. I kind of feel like this is an awkward first date and I'm trying to get you to like me
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I've been sober for nearly a month. It will be one month on the 13th. I've been going to AA pretty much every day since I've stopped drinking. I've not been perfect in AA since I feel weird about asking someone to be my sponsor and I'm not that great at talking about myself in person. I'm much more comfortable hiding behind the anonymity of a keyboard.
I've stopped drinking many times in the past but this is the first time that I've been to AA and the first time that I actually feel confident that this is a permanant thing. Before, I'd convince myself that I could drink like normal people and tell myself that I could just have one or two. This would inevitable lead me to binge drinking and lots of horrible consequences.
I know I can't control my drinking at all. I will never been a "normal" drinker. If I start drinking I never know where it will lead but it almost always ends with me drunk and feeling very sorry for myself once again.
I was drinking every day and often during the day and sometimes even the first thing in the morning.
Those days are in the past.
I do take comfort from the fact that I see many people in AA who appear to be very happy with their life. I used alcohol as a way of coping with severe depression and I know that now. I'm trying my best to face the challenges of life without this crux that ends up making things much worse. As they say, one day at a time.
Looking forward to meeting many of you. Thanks.
Matt
I'm Matt.
This feels weird and I don't know where to begin. I kind of feel like this is an awkward first date and I'm trying to get you to like me
. I've been sober for nearly a month. It will be one month on the 13th. I've been going to AA pretty much every day since I've stopped drinking. I've not been perfect in AA since I feel weird about asking someone to be my sponsor and I'm not that great at talking about myself in person. I'm much more comfortable hiding behind the anonymity of a keyboard.
I've stopped drinking many times in the past but this is the first time that I've been to AA and the first time that I actually feel confident that this is a permanant thing. Before, I'd convince myself that I could drink like normal people and tell myself that I could just have one or two. This would inevitable lead me to binge drinking and lots of horrible consequences.
I know I can't control my drinking at all. I will never been a "normal" drinker. If I start drinking I never know where it will lead but it almost always ends with me drunk and feeling very sorry for myself once again.
I was drinking every day and often during the day and sometimes even the first thing in the morning.
Those days are in the past.
I do take comfort from the fact that I see many people in AA who appear to be very happy with their life. I used alcohol as a way of coping with severe depression and I know that now. I'm trying my best to face the challenges of life without this crux that ends up making things much worse. As they say, one day at a time.
Looking forward to meeting many of you. Thanks.
Matt
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Join Date: Apr 2011
Location: California
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Hi Matt
Great introduction, and welcome to SR! I've found it absolutely instrumental with my 82 days sober. There are many, many great people on here, with wise words and amazing stories of recovery.
Stick around - it's always good to see a new face, especially one with a great attitude. I'm glad things are finally clicking for you
Great introduction, and welcome to SR! I've found it absolutely instrumental with my 82 days sober. There are many, many great people on here, with wise words and amazing stories of recovery.
Stick around - it's always good to see a new face, especially one with a great attitude. I'm glad things are finally clicking for you
to SR Matt! I can certainly relate to your drinking patterns. Glad you choose recovery. Keep up the good work!
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Thanks for the welcome everyone! Today has been a very bad day for me in many ways. I felt like I needed to do something and so I joined this forum on whim. I'm very glad I did. I'm also heading into a meeting here in a few minutes (its at a hospital and I'm in the cafeteria using their free wifi).
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Originally Posted by anomie666m 
This feels weird and I don't know where to begin. I kind of feel like this is an awkward first date and I'm trying to get you to like me .
.This is a good place to come when you need to talk/vent/get advice.
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