Yesterday was a flop:(
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Yesterday was a flop:(
So I ended up giving in yesterday and bought a 24 ounce beer but the good thing is that I was able to gather some strength and dump most of it out. I am not proud that I bought it but proud that I was able to stop my self and dump it before I drank it all.
So here I go again. I did go to a dependency treatment center yesterday and have found some help. So my goal today is to set it up.
So here I go again. I did go to a dependency treatment center yesterday and have found some help. So my goal today is to set it up.
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Originally Posted by sark 
So I ended up giving in yesterday and bought a 24 ounce beer but the good thing is that I was able to gather some strength and dump most of it out. I am not proud that I bought it but proud that I was able to stop my self and dump it before I drank it all.
So here I go again. I did go to a dependency treatment center yesterday and have found some help. So my goal today is to set it up.
So here I go again. I did go to a dependency treatment center yesterday and have found some help. So my goal today is to set it up.
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You're doing great, sark. I definitely agree with others when they say yesterday was not a flop. Sure, you may not have been 100% successful in your goals for the day but you were definitely not 0% successful, either.
What are you going to do today so that you don't buy the beer at all?
What are you going to do today so that you don't buy the beer at all?
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Great job on dumping out at least most of it. I think you made some great progress in admitting you drank yet coming back here, not to mention the fact that you went to a treatment center. It won't happen over night, keep trying.
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Hi Sark....sounds to me as if your starting to come to terms with your drinking. Soon you will be strong enough not to buy beer and tempt yourself. Think of it as a lesson along the way to recovery. You can do this....one step at a time!!
Best Wishes To You!
Best Wishes To You!
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I think dumping out that big beer was probably cathartic. Probably more memorable and significant to your recovery than another in a string of days. At the beginning of this string of my sobriety (nineteen days) I poured out the better part of a good bottle of wine. It took me a day to work up the guts, but I loved doing it. It put me in control of that bottle.
I think that the process of pouring alcohol down the sink is more important than just quitting. It should be required.
I think that the process of pouring alcohol down the sink is more important than just quitting. It should be required.
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I know how that is. I found my self drinking for no reason. Just because I felt bored. I use to go buy drinks and found myself pouring them out, telling my self Why? and "You don't need this anymore." Trust me stay strong. It gets better. Best of luck.
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When I relapsed or whatever I was told that something must be working if I was able to stop and pull myself together (and get rid of what I had left) and get back with the program....
So yeah, something must be moving in the right direction if you were able to pour it out and catch yourself. I mean the fact you went out and bought it isn't great either, but at least you stopped it before things seriously went downhill. Good job
So yeah, something must be moving in the right direction if you were able to pour it out and catch yourself. I mean the fact you went out and bought it isn't great either, but at least you stopped it before things seriously went downhill. Good job
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Originally Posted by ETA
It must have taken a tremendous amount of will power to pour out the beer. I'm thinking that I would have done something along the lines of "i'll quit after i finish this" ...
Sark, you can do it. It's like climbing a sand dune. You'll slide backwards occasionally, but the overall progress is UP.
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Originally Posted by sark
I was able to gather some strength and dump most of it out.
Keep building the not drinking muscle. You can be recovered.
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Thank you all for your encouragement. Last night was good. No beer! I still feel the withdrawals but they seem to be lessening.
It feels as though a fog is lifting off. I know it is good but it also scares me. Now I have to face the fact that my husband is gone. I don't think i really grieved him becuase I numbed it with drinking. Now I have to face it
It feels as though a fog is lifting off. I know it is good but it also scares me. Now I have to face the fact that my husband is gone. I don't think i really grieved him becuase I numbed it with drinking. Now I have to face it
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