Iwantmeback

Hi all,

I'm just really dissapointed in myself right now. I hate suffering! What is wrong with me?

keithj

Could it perhaps be alcoholism as described in the BB of AA?

Anna

I know that addiction is painful.

I hope you continue to work on stopping drinking.

PaperDolls

The suffering CAN end and it CAN get better.
Keep coming back and listen to others experience and hope.

Takumi

Well you might be an alcoholic or drug addict if you are on this website. Addiction, IMO, is like putting on very dark sunglasses whereas you are looking at the same world that was there before but now it's very dark. Luckily, it is possible to take those glasses off and see what's really there again. And even if what's there isn't perfect, you can see it in the light. When I got sober the first time, I felt like a totally different person. Almost like being reborn.

1undone

It's okay. We are here for you.

Iwantmeback

Thanks so much everyone for your support. Today was so tough but tomorrow is another day and I'm looking forward to it.

1undone

I know how you feel! Thank goodness for the tomorrow's even though we are only supposed to think about today.

Elisabeth888

I hope tomorrow is better for you. I had to have my a$$ handed to me on a plate to get out of denial.

Boleo

In this life, pain is inevitable but suffering is optional. It's true. Both happiness and misery are an inside job.

Live your life according to spiritual principles and the suffering will stop.

Aysha

I always wonder whats wrong with me too. And the answer is ..me.

I have been told to get out of my own way and listen to others who have found and kept what I need and want.
I am glad to see your optimistic. Keep an open mind and keep reaching out

instant

IWMB
Are you really in denial or is it something else?

I found doing a written list of pros and cons of drinking, and understanding the AVRT concept of 'rational recovery' really helpful

I found the concept of surrender really helpful to me - it lifted a heavy load. I don't go to AA but I read the Big Book several times

I was also directed to practising gratitude everyday- this has helped enormously to stay in a good place emotionally

However learning to live free of alcohol has to be done in real time- I could carry those three things with me - they got me to day 45- which I would not have thought possible only two months ago when all I could string together was a few days at a time.

My thoughts are with you