Day 60
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Join Date: Apr 2009
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Day 60
I've officially made it to two months sober. The first seven weeks were a sinch, however I have found the last week to be extremely difficult. I am also "nursing" a heartache from losing my last relationship mainly due to my drinking and I think it's finally settling in that he's never coming back. I have always known this and it definitely isn't the reason I quit drinking (I don't think he even knows I quit), but there is something about the vibe in this week that is letting it all sink in. I'm finding it hard to keep myself busy... I find a lot of the time I just allow myself to just sit and think, which can be dangerous for anyone.
I am turning 30 this week however and I'm quite excited about it. I feel as though my 30's are going to be a good decade for me... Regardless, this will only ring true if I keep away from the alcohol. I really don't want to re-live the last ten years over and over, which is what will happen if I continue to drink. On top of this, there is a huge difference in what we are held accountable for between the ages of 20 and 30... Pretty sure all the great people who have stuck by me the last ten years wont be as forgiving in the next ten.
There is something to be said though about not waking up for two whole months, completely and utterly embarrassed for your behaviour the night before... What a great feeling that has been. There has been absolutely NO drama for an entire 60 days. I've realised that sober, I'm not half bad as a human being. I actually have a lot of redeeming qualities that were otherwise masked and hidden behind all the ridiculous mistakes I use to make. Now I can actually see that they are there. Nice.
I am turning 30 this week however and I'm quite excited about it. I feel as though my 30's are going to be a good decade for me... Regardless, this will only ring true if I keep away from the alcohol. I really don't want to re-live the last ten years over and over, which is what will happen if I continue to drink. On top of this, there is a huge difference in what we are held accountable for between the ages of 20 and 30... Pretty sure all the great people who have stuck by me the last ten years wont be as forgiving in the next ten.
There is something to be said though about not waking up for two whole months, completely and utterly embarrassed for your behaviour the night before... What a great feeling that has been. There has been absolutely NO drama for an entire 60 days. I've realised that sober, I'm not half bad as a human being. I actually have a lot of redeeming qualities that were otherwise masked and hidden behind all the ridiculous mistakes I use to make. Now I can actually see that they are there. Nice.
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Congratulations on 60 days!!! It's a wonderful accomplishment SullenGirl.
I love what you said about being drama free for the last 60 days...I've found the very same thing. I had no idea that 80% of the drama in my life was caused by me, drinking - or the drinking affecting my reactions to drama caused by others. It's so great to just live life even. I never thought even would be where I would be happiest!
I love what you said about being drama free for the last 60 days...I've found the very same thing. I had no idea that 80% of the drama in my life was caused by me, drinking - or the drinking affecting my reactions to drama caused by others. It's so great to just live life even. I never thought even would be where I would be happiest!
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60 days, good for you. I went through a split a few months before I stopped drinking last summer that was mutual but caused a lot of heartache. It complicated getting and staying sober but I know what you mean...it's painful. It, like all pain, heals though with time. Heres to another 60 for you 
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