Alcohol
Alcohol
Alcohol is insidious, treacherous, crafty, sinister, dangerious, subtle and menacing. It works it's way inside your body and your mind like cancer and screws up your whole life. It's a total bas**rd and I HATE IT!
Why did I let it screw me up? Why does it affect one person so much and the next person is fine? Who decides who can drink within safe levels and who can't? It's not fair!
Rant, rant, rant. Sorry, I'm ok now. I'm just really really really angry about the hold alcohol has over me and the way it makes me behave.
Anyway, on a positive note (I think it's positive anyway) I went for 7 days without drinking. Ok, so I'm back to day 1 now, but I feel I'm getting better and am looking forward to this week and the fight ahead.
Best wishes all.
Spikeman
Why did I let it screw me up? Why does it affect one person so much and the next person is fine? Who decides who can drink within safe levels and who can't? It's not fair!
Rant, rant, rant. Sorry, I'm ok now. I'm just really really really angry about the hold alcohol has over me and the way it makes me behave.
Anyway, on a positive note (I think it's positive anyway) I went for 7 days without drinking. Ok, so I'm back to day 1 now, but I feel I'm getting better and am looking forward to this week and the fight ahead.
Best wishes all.
Spikeman
I think the key is to do something different Spikeman.
I tried - a lot - but trying on its own didn't get me very far...a week here, a week there.
What can you add to what you've been doing this time? what more support can you find?
what changes can you make?
D
I tried - a lot - but trying on its own didn't get me very far...a week here, a week there.
What can you add to what you've been doing this time? what more support can you find?
what changes can you make?
D
I'm where you're at. 4 days without and then I relapsed. Then one day, and I relapsed again yesterday. I'm trying not to dwell and am happy I didn't get drunk* either time I relapsed, but it's so hard. I allow myself to talk me into it. Sigh...we'll get there!
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OKay I am only at three and a half weeks. Prior I thought I was a doomed relapser. In my head I was looking for any excuse, including blaming the alcohol. But then I got real with myself, the alcohol has none of its own characteristics, and, for me anyway, it does not compel me to drink it. Alcohol is not the problem. I am. I quite simply cannot drink it. And when I don't drink alcohol, those problems aren't there. Sure though I have some issues that need a clear period of sobriety to come right, but I can calm down and let it happen. Now with this new freedom and clarity of thought I am able to look at myself, realise my own shortcommings as well as my strengths. And work on both. Good luck to you!
I tried and tried and tried and tried....
I absolutely could not quit drinking without help. Period.
I found some awesome people at an AA meeting and I went every single day. Somedays (early on when it was really tough) I went to two or three meetings a day. I gave up trying to handle this all by myself and I did the one thing I thought would kill me: I asked for help! That one thing ended up saving my life and I finally understand that saying I thought was stupid : "Surrender to win".
This is how I got sober and how I stay sober (well, this was the beginning and there's alot more to it) but that's how I began this beautiful journey. I would not dare tell you how you should do it but it can't hurt to tell you how I did it, right?
Just know that it can be done. You can get sober and be happy again. Best of luck and please don't be afraid or ashamed to ask for help.
Peace.
I absolutely could not quit drinking without help. Period.
I found some awesome people at an AA meeting and I went every single day. Somedays (early on when it was really tough) I went to two or three meetings a day. I gave up trying to handle this all by myself and I did the one thing I thought would kill me: I asked for help! That one thing ended up saving my life and I finally understand that saying I thought was stupid : "Surrender to win".
This is how I got sober and how I stay sober (well, this was the beginning and there's alot more to it) but that's how I began this beautiful journey. I would not dare tell you how you should do it but it can't hurt to tell you how I did it, right?
Just know that it can be done. You can get sober and be happy again. Best of luck and please don't be afraid or ashamed to ask for help.
Peace.
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