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Hello.
I am here 4 days sober after drinking literally non-stop for almost three years. My dad died, my anxiety was horrible.... long story short whenever ANYTHING went wrong, i would have at least a sip. By the end I was drinking sometimes a pint of vodka, plus a shot, plus three glasses of wine a day. I am 26 years old. I have an amazing Husband.
I would on some days literally drink from morning to night. It was a two-fold affect for me: I would be tipsy AND my appetite would go away. I would drink before, during and after work. I would drink at home, sometimes would drive after a drink or two because I couldn't really feel it.
I truly believed that alcohol made me a better person because i am a loner, socially shy/awkward and introverted. Because I have anxiety and bouts of depression. Because it hindered my appetite so i stayed thinner. What's better than someone who is skinny and happy and outgoing RIGHT?? WRONG.
It almost ruined my husband's trust in me. I said things and acted in ways i regret. I threw up, passed out, blacked out, got dizzy, forgot things, got angry and physical, screamed and yelled and became a total monster. i stopped caring about anything else. Stopped baking and working out and cooking and playing. Stopped caring about God.
I have never stopped for more than a week or two. I will now. Life is too short as it is.
thanks for letting me vent
I am here 4 days sober after drinking literally non-stop for almost three years. My dad died, my anxiety was horrible.... long story short whenever ANYTHING went wrong, i would have at least a sip. By the end I was drinking sometimes a pint of vodka, plus a shot, plus three glasses of wine a day. I am 26 years old. I have an amazing Husband.
I would on some days literally drink from morning to night. It was a two-fold affect for me: I would be tipsy AND my appetite would go away. I would drink before, during and after work. I would drink at home, sometimes would drive after a drink or two because I couldn't really feel it.
I truly believed that alcohol made me a better person because i am a loner, socially shy/awkward and introverted. Because I have anxiety and bouts of depression. Because it hindered my appetite so i stayed thinner. What's better than someone who is skinny and happy and outgoing RIGHT?? WRONG.
It almost ruined my husband's trust in me. I said things and acted in ways i regret. I threw up, passed out, blacked out, got dizzy, forgot things, got angry and physical, screamed and yelled and became a total monster. i stopped caring about anything else. Stopped baking and working out and cooking and playing. Stopped caring about God.
I have never stopped for more than a week or two. I will now. Life is too short as it is.
thanks for letting me vent
I can totally relate. I have lived an almost identical cycle for the past 3 years. I'm only 9 days in, but after my first entire weekend of not drinking, I can say I'm feeling like a better person and wife already. I too, had no appetite while drinking and lost a lot of weight but it's not the right way to do it and my health may be suffering as a consequence. (we'll see after I visit the Dr in 2 weeks).
Good for you for posting and taking the step. I have had immense support in a short time here - and you will have it too!!! Glad you are here!
Good for you for posting and taking the step. I have had immense support in a short time here - and you will have it too!!! Glad you are here!
Welcome to SR magdalena
I can identify with the way you drank. Drinking was central to my life too.
Detox can sometimes be a little rough for some of us, so please consider seeing your doctor as a first port of call, just to be safe.
You'll find a lot of help support and hope here. Good to have you with us!
D
I can identify with the way you drank. Drinking was central to my life too.
Detox can sometimes be a little rough for some of us, so please consider seeing your doctor as a first port of call, just to be safe.
You'll find a lot of help support and hope here. Good to have you with us!
D
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I'm so glad to hear that you're ready to quit!! When I was reading about you and your husband, I thought "That is me!!" I have exactly the same history-- man, what my husband has been through with me! The important thing is that we change things from now on! I wish you all the best in your recovery!
Congrats Madalena! I could have written your post myself! The great thing about getting sober is you can reclaim your life again. Look in the mirror and be proud of yourself.
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Best Wishes To You!
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Best Wishes To You!
Welcome to the family. I was a wino but I only drank when I was awake.... Kind of like having an alcohol IV in my arm all day long... Gave it up for good (finally!) 18 months ago and am a better happier person all round. I hope we can be of help to you.
Welcome! Your drinking sounds a lot like mine--I just did it longer. I used it as a weight-control aid, too. Horrible nutritionally--most alcoholics (even the overweight ones) tend to be malnourished. I found it SUCH a relief to just put the drinking behind me. Nothing but good things ahead for those that do.
Do you have a plan for staying sober? I find AA to be a great way to live.
Do you have a plan for staying sober? I find AA to be a great way to live.
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