60 Days Today!
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60 Days Today!
It feels like a lot longer, around 50 days without a cigarette too.
I feel like such a different person compared to 60 days ago. The day I entered rehab my self esteem was in the gutter. My face was puffy, my eyes red. I was bloated from having a carb-fest with my last hangover, my breathing was sometimes labored from chain smoking during my last binge and I would get dizzy sometimes when I stood up too fast.
Today I feel great. I feel like I am 'me' again, like I was when I was a teenager and in my early 20's before my addiction took off (I am now 30). I didn't realise how much my personality would change in sobriety. I am more relaxed, friendly, positive and motivated.
Physically I feel amazing. When I was drinking I was in a pattern of abstain-binge-abstain etc. I felt that I had gave myself brain damage and I would also get heart flutters. All my checkup blood tests were fine though. Luckily these symptoms have gone, they really worried me. I have lost about 3-4 kilos. It looks like I have lost more because the bloating has gone. My skin is so much nicer. I have really been taking care of myself too, quite obsessively with eating well. It is a great deterrent to not drink, knowing how well I am treating myself and how I would feel if I binged and smoked etc.
My mindset has changed so much regarding what I value. The other night I was at a bistro having dinner with my husband and his family and a family friend was introduced to me. She sat down with a wine glass and a bottle of red. I felt slightly floored, it was the first time I had sat with someone drinking wine in my sobriety. Looking at the wine I thought, mmm that would taste nice. But I was genuinely glad that I was choosing to have a tea and would wake up on Saturday feeling healthy and have energy to do a lot of different things.
Today however I felt a bit off. I actually woke up feeling like I had a hang over. I think it is because I went for a long jog yesterday so I was probably dehydrated and I had a later than usual night. It is not a feeling I miss.
Can't wait to post my progress at 90 days!
I feel like such a different person compared to 60 days ago. The day I entered rehab my self esteem was in the gutter. My face was puffy, my eyes red. I was bloated from having a carb-fest with my last hangover, my breathing was sometimes labored from chain smoking during my last binge and I would get dizzy sometimes when I stood up too fast.
Today I feel great. I feel like I am 'me' again, like I was when I was a teenager and in my early 20's before my addiction took off (I am now 30). I didn't realise how much my personality would change in sobriety. I am more relaxed, friendly, positive and motivated.
Physically I feel amazing. When I was drinking I was in a pattern of abstain-binge-abstain etc. I felt that I had gave myself brain damage and I would also get heart flutters. All my checkup blood tests were fine though. Luckily these symptoms have gone, they really worried me. I have lost about 3-4 kilos. It looks like I have lost more because the bloating has gone. My skin is so much nicer. I have really been taking care of myself too, quite obsessively with eating well. It is a great deterrent to not drink, knowing how well I am treating myself and how I would feel if I binged and smoked etc.
My mindset has changed so much regarding what I value. The other night I was at a bistro having dinner with my husband and his family and a family friend was introduced to me. She sat down with a wine glass and a bottle of red. I felt slightly floored, it was the first time I had sat with someone drinking wine in my sobriety. Looking at the wine I thought, mmm that would taste nice. But I was genuinely glad that I was choosing to have a tea and would wake up on Saturday feeling healthy and have energy to do a lot of different things.
Today however I felt a bit off. I actually woke up feeling like I had a hang over. I think it is because I went for a long jog yesterday so I was probably dehydrated and I had a later than usual night. It is not a feeling I miss.
Can't wait to post my progress at 90 days!
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