subisbad

Good morning all, well here it is day 21. Up and down. The past 6 days were rough. Not at all because I wanted to use, but because I am so very weak! I am trying to keep myself fed, taking vits, walking in the mornings and trying to accomplish at least 1 small task daily. Was doing great on day 14, then down hill for 6. Since everyone's different, no telling how long it will be before I can feel good longer than an hour at a time, without being exhausted. I know being so physically out of shape is a big part and over 40 yrs of addiction. I am going to go to a yoga class in the morning, then take my girl to community college for placement testing. My husband has been such a huge support but he has to go to work up north for 4 days. Leaves tomorrow very early. That's going to be a big challenge. But I do have my daughter. I have to dig really deep to try and appreciate the little tiny things, as it's all I have. Husband has been out of his normal work force over 2 yrs and had been replying on odd jobs to get us by. I cannot go out and work. Long story. I have been a stay home mom since the birth of my one and only. So yoga and eventually power walking and swimming is what I will be doing this Summer. Looking fwd to yoga, as that's something I've wanted to do for many yrs but that drug kept getting in my way.
So if anyone out there can please offer me some positive words of some sort to keep me from being so depressed, I'd sure appreciate it! I did get to the grocery store, and to get cigs, and came home and made banana bread. Now ready for a rest. Whew! 21 days seems so long, but it really isn't at all is it?! Someone with encouraging words please?! Weak, and nowhere to go. Love to all~

Anna

Yay for Yoga and walking! I love both of those and long walks after supper really helped me to get through the first few weeks of sobriety.

Try to be kind to yourself. I found it hard in early recovery to be gentle with me, because I felt like I had messed up so much. But, it's important to remember that you're right where you need to be in your life and you're doing great!

Dee74

I think Anna's right - I was very hard on myself to for a long time because I felt ashamed of all I'd done - sometimes I was completely overlooking the fact I'd gotten sober

I think early recovery is rough for a lot of us too - I expected that life would be roses every day, and it's not...but being sober helps me to stay not too far from the roses, even when I'm having a bad day or two....

I think you're doing great - congrats on 3 weeks!

D