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v. Doing Fine
but very busy. I have another very stressful end of week. I have a couple of ideas about how to handle it more successfully than last week. For one thing, when I'm done with the year-end meeting tomorrow I have a 3 hour car service thingy which will require me to sit and read papers in the car place. So I will perhaps relax during that time.
But today is sunny, I'm rolling through the tasks. More later!
I hope everyone is having a great day!
But today is sunny, I'm rolling through the tasks. More later!
I hope everyone is having a great day!
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Hi Missy, congrats on V days!!! I'd take a good book, or an ipod, or maybe just good old fashioned paper and pen to the car service. What a great opportunity to fill 3 hours with something just for YOU, especially after a long meeting. Stick in there.
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Yeah! Happy v Day.
I'm not having a good day but seeing your positivity has buoyed me up!
On lipitor's amazing thread, I really really appreciate your posting to him your truth about lying.
Here's my truth. Now that I'm not-drinking I have to deal with all my internal crap in the rags and bone shop of my heart. SUCKS.
Off to get my ass into action and out of my pity wallow.
I'm not having a good day but seeing your positivity has buoyed me up!
On lipitor's amazing thread, I really really appreciate your posting to him your truth about lying.
Here's my truth. Now that I'm not-drinking I have to deal with all my internal crap in the rags and bone shop of my heart. SUCKS.
Off to get my ass into action and out of my pity wallow.
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Ahh,, more Yeats Frances.
Thanks for noticing my post about the other kinds of lies. My biggest problem with AA is that I'm just not a joiner. And I don't do dogma. Can't. It's like I'm allergic. So when I am exposed to people who seem artifically happy or who oversimplify things, I just can't buy it.
This is hard. And, once again, back to that series of posts after my one-night relapse, the ones that really kept challenging that I didn't "want" to quit.
If I had the nerve, I would start a thread about wanting to quit.
I think that people might "want" not to be sick, and in trouble, and all the elements that come with an alcohol problem, but the very nature of alcoholism would imply that we don't "Want" to quit. Just like I don't "want" to diet.
Oh well. No more ranting for me.
I have quite the high risk day professionally tomorrow. Very nervous. But once that sucker is over, I'll be pretty happy.
I hope your day got better Frances, and yes, WorkingtheDay, tomorrow we are in the text itself.
Thanks for noticing my post about the other kinds of lies. My biggest problem with AA is that I'm just not a joiner. And I don't do dogma. Can't. It's like I'm allergic. So when I am exposed to people who seem artifically happy or who oversimplify things, I just can't buy it.
This is hard. And, once again, back to that series of posts after my one-night relapse, the ones that really kept challenging that I didn't "want" to quit.
If I had the nerve, I would start a thread about wanting to quit.
I think that people might "want" not to be sick, and in trouble, and all the elements that come with an alcohol problem, but the very nature of alcoholism would imply that we don't "Want" to quit. Just like I don't "want" to diet.
Oh well. No more ranting for me.
I have quite the high risk day professionally tomorrow. Very nervous. But once that sucker is over, I'll be pretty happy.
I hope your day got better Frances, and yes, WorkingtheDay, tomorrow we are in the text itself.
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I didn't want to quit. Not really.
Like I've said before I was scared of changing my life, I was scared of changing who I was.
But I had no choice, I drank to the point of drink or die.
The funny thing was the more I stayed sober, the more the person I thought I was...
fell away...and the real me emerged again.
I'd been fighting to keep the corrupted me.
And the real me very much wanted to stay around
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Like I've said before I was scared of changing my life, I was scared of changing who I was.
But I had no choice, I drank to the point of drink or die.
The funny thing was the more I stayed sober, the more the person I thought I was...
fell away...and the real me emerged again.
I'd been fighting to keep the corrupted me.
And the real me very much wanted to stay around
D
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Doing much better today, thanks.
Have you read Caroline Knapp's "Drinking, A Love Story?" Recovery memoir of a high-functioning drunk. What separates it from others is her excellent writing. Highly recommended. Smart smart smart--she surgically unravels the knots of her thought patterns in ways that make me suck in my breath.
eBooks.com - Drinking: A Love Story eBook
Underneath the Yeats is a lot of Keats and underneath THAT is a LOT of Milton.
Bring on the text!
Have you read Caroline Knapp's "Drinking, A Love Story?" Recovery memoir of a high-functioning drunk. What separates it from others is her excellent writing. Highly recommended. Smart smart smart--she surgically unravels the knots of her thought patterns in ways that make me suck in my breath.
eBooks.com - Drinking: A Love Story eBook
Underneath the Yeats is a lot of Keats and underneath THAT is a LOT of Milton.
Bring on the text!
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Keats...how about Shelley? You know, I avoided Milton. I think the 18th Century guy at my university just wasn't on my radar. Funny how that happens.
I have a very, very special academic day today. I work at a community college and I and a colleague have founded an Honors Program. Today we have our first Symposium to celebrate our first year in existence.
So I have invited the entire college. There will only be twenty or thirty people there, but among them will be all the important deans and perhaps my own Honors mentor from the local university...kinda twitchy. I of course will allude to Plato, but mostly I'm going to introduce the program, the students, the faculty, then let them talk.
Whew.
Then, I have scheduled a car appointment that will take about three hours. I have to sit there so I won't do the celebration drink thing. Then there will be traffic so I'll be happy with Starbucks.
Wish me luck!
Glad you're better!
I have a very, very special academic day today. I work at a community college and I and a colleague have founded an Honors Program. Today we have our first Symposium to celebrate our first year in existence.
So I have invited the entire college. There will only be twenty or thirty people there, but among them will be all the important deans and perhaps my own Honors mentor from the local university...kinda twitchy. I of course will allude to Plato, but mostly I'm going to introduce the program, the students, the faculty, then let them talk.
Whew.
Then, I have scheduled a car appointment that will take about three hours. I have to sit there so I won't do the celebration drink thing. Then there will be traffic so I'll be happy with Starbucks.
Wish me luck!
Glad you're better!
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Yes. Married to Mary who links inexorably to a room of our own. 
MAN I'm having fun thinking about these writers.
CONGRATS on your program's first anniversary! That's WONDERFUL! Enjoy your car getting fixed and your Starbucks, book and knitting.
MAN I'm having fun thinking about these writers.
CONGRATS on your program's first anniversary! That's WONDERFUL! Enjoy your car getting fixed and your Starbucks, book and knitting.
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