Feel like I'm slipping
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Join Date: Feb 2011
Location: Simpsonville, SC
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Feel like I'm slipping
i've been in recovery for 6 weeks and a couple of hours ago I noticed thoughts that Ive been able to realize were insane. I thought about taking some nyquil...not for a cold but to help me get to sleep sooner. I'm not going to b/c it could trigger the obsession but a couple of days ago I wouldn't have even thought about it.
Also my liscense will be suspended for a while and I thought about driving anyway...it would make life so much easier unless I got caught. No public transportation in my area & the people I get rides from I can tell are getting tired of it. I think that if I did drive it would be a form of dishonesty and I'm afraid that would keep my life from getting better. I could get a moped but I can't seem to shake that stigma and I'll feel like a loser even though I know I would be doing the right thing.
These thoughts are scaring me b/c I know relapse starts in your mind way before you pick up.
Also my liscense will be suspended for a while and I thought about driving anyway...it would make life so much easier unless I got caught. No public transportation in my area & the people I get rides from I can tell are getting tired of it. I think that if I did drive it would be a form of dishonesty and I'm afraid that would keep my life from getting better. I could get a moped but I can't seem to shake that stigma and I'll feel like a loser even though I know I would be doing the right thing.
These thoughts are scaring me b/c I know relapse starts in your mind way before you pick up.
You are in the right place. I am sure we all have these thoughts--even though I'm only approaching Day 5. But it's still new to me and I'm very happy about just not being hung over so I'm in the honeymoon. But I was giving a lecture today and was doing a great job but knew it was taking a toll on me and I thought--I'm getting a drink tonight. This is just where we go. But I didn't, and it wasn't easy. So hang in there. You've made it this far and you know what to do.
Hi Jess4856
Welcome to SR
I think fear is a biggie for most of us - it's not unusual to have 'thoughts' when we have something 'hanging over us'
Good for you for realising that and coming here
I know you'll find a lot of support here - do you have any face to face support as well?
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Welcome to SR
I think fear is a biggie for most of us - it's not unusual to have 'thoughts' when we have something 'hanging over us'
Good for you for realising that and coming here
I know you'll find a lot of support here - do you have any face to face support as well?
D
Welcome Jesse - good for you for identifying those unhealthy thoughts (and congrats on your sobriety!)...... It's what we do with the thoughts that matter. I still had a lot of urges at 6 weeks, so I think you're doing well.
I've never had my license suspended so I can only imagine how frustrating it would be. Maybe you could offer to pay people for some of the rides they give you(?) I find that staying in today keeps things manageable for me.
You sure don't want to get be driving illegally and compound your problems. Each day you get through is one day closer to the life you want........ Hang in there!:ghug3
I've never had my license suspended so I can only imagine how frustrating it would be. Maybe you could offer to pay people for some of the rides they give you(?) I find that staying in today keeps things manageable for me.
You sure don't want to get be driving illegally and compound your problems. Each day you get through is one day closer to the life you want........ Hang in there!:ghug3
I know what its like to lose my driving privelages, it sucks beyong belief. Little things like just wanting to go get some milk is such a hassle. But you can't do it because you WILL get caught, especially if you're anything like me..
I would suggest this as an opportunity to get in better shape. The weather is nicer, maybe invest in a bike or walk alot more. It can be a good thing..
I would suggest this as an opportunity to get in better shape. The weather is nicer, maybe invest in a bike or walk alot more. It can be a good thing..
Hi Jess, It's awesome that you are realizing these things and being honest with yourself and reaching out to us. That is a huge step.
However, I know how much it sucks to lose your license...mine has been suspended now for close to 2 years. It's hard having to rely on others for rides :\ I'm actually sitting here waiting for my husband to stop playing stupid farmville and get the hell off the computer so he can take me to walgreens b/c our daughter and I are both sick. Yeah, he has his priorities straight for sure Anyways, I'm done venting lol. Again, I am so sorry but glad you came on here and reached out!
-Jess
However, I know how much it sucks to lose your license...mine has been suspended now for close to 2 years. It's hard having to rely on others for rides :\ I'm actually sitting here waiting for my husband to stop playing stupid farmville and get the hell off the computer so he can take me to walgreens b/c our daughter and I are both sick. Yeah, he has his priorities straight for sure Anyways, I'm done venting lol. Again, I am so sorry but glad you came on here and reached out!
-Jess
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