Day 1
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Join Date: Apr 2011
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Day 1
Day 1 again. I've been back at this point so many times. It really is a curse. Quite frankly I need help. I keep attempting sobriety alone and continuously fail. I've made it 2-3 months several times in the last 2 years, but always end up falling off the wagon. Those periods of sobriety are truly bright periods in my life, so why I would turn back to this darkness is a mystery to me.
I've gone through withdrawal so many times, and I get to experience that hell all over again. It really is madness.
I've gone through withdrawal so many times, and I get to experience that hell all over again. It really is madness.
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Join Date: Apr 2011
Location: Florida
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Welcome Icarus,
I'm on day 10 now and I've been through withdrawal about 3 times in the past 6 months so don't get down on yourself. Just do everything you can to not let it happen again. You'll find a lot of help and support here, and if you need to talk there's usually someone willing to listen in the chat room. I've noticed that in the short time I've been here.
Good luck and congrats on 1 day
I'm on day 10 now and I've been through withdrawal about 3 times in the past 6 months so don't get down on yourself. Just do everything you can to not let it happen again. You'll find a lot of help and support here, and if you need to talk there's usually someone willing to listen in the chat room. I've noticed that in the short time I've been here.
Good luck and congrats on 1 day
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Join Date: Dec 2010
Location: Roxboro, NC
Posts: 544
Cunning, baffling and all powerful. I made promises in the morning that I would break that same afternoon.
You are correct, you can't do it by yourself. You off to a good start at SoberRecovery.
What other support are you seeking?
You are correct, you can't do it by yourself. You off to a good start at SoberRecovery.
What other support are you seeking?
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Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: Australia
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Hi Icarus
welcome to SR
Yeah it is madness - I always felt better when sober - but I always went back to drinking - against all logical arguments.
I found support made a huge difference...accepting that drinking was destroying me and I needed to do whatever was necessary for me to stop drinking was the other turning point.
You'll find a lot of support here - are you thinking of face to face support as well?
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welcome to SR
Yeah it is madness - I always felt better when sober - but I always went back to drinking - against all logical arguments.
I found support made a huge difference...accepting that drinking was destroying me and I needed to do whatever was necessary for me to stop drinking was the other turning point.
You'll find a lot of support here - are you thinking of face to face support as well?
D
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Join Date: Aug 2010
Location: Indianapolis, IN
Posts: 889
Welcome. I too took many times of trying to quit drinking before it stuck. My only advice is don't beat yourself up. The past is the past. We all stay sober just one day at a time. I know that is said over and over but it's true. I would also suggest getting some type of program for your recovery. You mentioned you can't do it alone, and neither could I. There are many programs out there and this site is a big help as well.
Hang in there!
Hang in there!
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Thanks everyone for all the kind words. It means a lot to hear from people who know exactly what I'm going through.
Day 1 is definitely painful. I knew alcohol was destroying me again, and that I needed to quit once more, so of course I made last nights bender really memorable. The stupid choices you make when you are drinking. I'm just lucky I haven't killed myself yet. I have a wife, and 8 and 5 year old little girls to think about. It really should be all the reason I would need to stay sober, but I keep repeating the insanity.
As for support groups, I'll have to consider my options. Though where I live, I don't think there is much else but AA. Which I'm open minded about. And I'll keep coming here, as it looks like a great community.
Day 1 is definitely painful. I knew alcohol was destroying me again, and that I needed to quit once more, so of course I made last nights bender really memorable. The stupid choices you make when you are drinking. I'm just lucky I haven't killed myself yet. I have a wife, and 8 and 5 year old little girls to think about. It really should be all the reason I would need to stay sober, but I keep repeating the insanity.
As for support groups, I'll have to consider my options. Though where I live, I don't think there is much else but AA. Which I'm open minded about. And I'll keep coming here, as it looks like a great community.
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Join Date: Jan 2010
Location: toronto canada
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welcome icarus.
there comes a point in one's life when enough is enough.
i know iv'e reached my point where i simply cannot go through withdrawls again.
it was soooo painful emotionally and so scary physically,that i surrender to alcohol .i simply do not have it in me to battle it one more time.
some of us will fight it to the gates of insanity or death/im one stubborn sob/but im not gonna go down that road.
a friend of mines uncle drank himself into a state where he was blind and could'nt speak,he was trapped in his body for a month before he died/he would cry when his family tried to comfort him....
alcohol...............some friend.
there comes a point in one's life when enough is enough.
i know iv'e reached my point where i simply cannot go through withdrawls again.
it was soooo painful emotionally and so scary physically,that i surrender to alcohol .i simply do not have it in me to battle it one more time.
some of us will fight it to the gates of insanity or death/im one stubborn sob/but im not gonna go down that road.
a friend of mines uncle drank himself into a state where he was blind and could'nt speak,he was trapped in his body for a month before he died/he would cry when his family tried to comfort him....
alcohol...............some friend.
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Originally Posted by ulverston 
welcome icarus.
there comes a point in one's life when enough is enough.
i know iv'e reached my point where i simply cannot go through withdrawls again.
it was soooo painful emotionally and so scary physically,that i surrender to alcohol .i simply do not have it in me to battle it one more time.
some of us will fight it to the gates of insanity or death/im one stubborn sob/but im not gonna go down that road.
a friend of mines uncle drank himself into a state where he was blind and could'nt speak,he was trapped in his body for a month before he died/he would cry when his family tried to comfort him....
alcohol...............some friend.
there comes a point in one's life when enough is enough.
i know iv'e reached my point where i simply cannot go through withdrawls again.
it was soooo painful emotionally and so scary physically,that i surrender to alcohol .i simply do not have it in me to battle it one more time.
some of us will fight it to the gates of insanity or death/im one stubborn sob/but im not gonna go down that road.
a friend of mines uncle drank himself into a state where he was blind and could'nt speak,he was trapped in his body for a month before he died/he would cry when his family tried to comfort him....
alcohol...............some friend.
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Join Date: Apr 2010
Location: Mississippi
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Welcome - glad you decided to join us! This is a great place to get support. I don't think anyone can stay sober on their own...... I know I couldn't. I stayed on this forum for 2 solid days when I decided to quit. I had lost all confidence in myself to win the battle with alcohol.
Things will get better...... and you can have your life back again. Take it one day at a time and keep posting/reading!
Things will get better...... and you can have your life back again. Take it one day at a time and keep posting/reading!
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Well Day 2 is here. I feel like walking death today, but that's to be expected. Trust me I know everything that is to be expected with withdrawal. What's that old line by Mark Twain about quitting smoking? "Quitting smoking is easy, I've done it 100's of times." Well I would prefer to not go through this 100's of times. Here's to reason winning over madness. (Yes, that's a non-alcoholic toast).
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Join Date: Aug 2010
Location: Canada
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Hang in there Icarus10. As you know, try to get plenty of rest, lots of water, lots of showers or baths, fruits and vegetables... I hope the withdrawals don't last too long. They can be brutal.
Hope you are taking the time to think about your recovery plan -- I think one of the keys is to work your program each and everyday and not get complacent.
I wish you the very best, and take care and keep posting and letting us know how you are doing. We all care Icarus10 -- you can do this.
Hope you are taking the time to think about your recovery plan -- I think one of the keys is to work your program each and everyday and not get complacent.
I wish you the very best, and take care and keep posting and letting us know how you are doing. We all care Icarus10 -- you can do this.
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Originally Posted by ItWillBeWorthIt
Hang in there Icarus10. As you know, try to get plenty of rest, lots of water, lots of showers or baths, fruits and vegetables... I hope the withdrawals don't last too long. They can be brutal.
Hope you are taking the time to think about your recovery plan -- I think one of the keys is to work your program each and everyday and not get complacent.
I wish you the very best, and take care and keep posting and letting us know how you are doing. We all care Icarus10 -- you can do this.
Hope you are taking the time to think about your recovery plan -- I think one of the keys is to work your program each and everyday and not get complacent.
I wish you the very best, and take care and keep posting and letting us know how you are doing. We all care Icarus10 -- you can do this.
I'm going to be thinking of my long term recovery plan for sure.
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Join Date: Apr 2011
Location: Dublin Ireland
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Hi Im new to this and I have fallen off the wagon after 3 weeks sober and Im three days drinking again and trying to get back on the wagon. I totally relate to you and am finding it very very hard to beat this disease the meetings do help but my god this is hard!!!!!!!!!!!!
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