Eclipse

So I thought I could drink in moderation and I did for a long time...but it starts creeping up on me again and I see those old behaviors popping up their scary little heads. Time to get back on the wagon and feel good again.

BoozeFree

Thats what happened to me many times after a short period of sober time I seemed to forget how bad my drinking and life got before getting sober. For me remembering what drinking did to my life is important so that I dont end up back there. Hang in there!

Eclipse

Thanks BoozeFree. I actually feel relief. We'll see what the day brings.

least

Welcome back.

Anna

Welcome back, Eclipse!

CarolD

All my best to you and your family
Welcome back...

GettingStronger2

Welcome back. Many have tried to moderate and control. some, like you, have been able to do so for a period of time. If you are an alcoholic, though, it will not last, as you seem to have found out.

Hopefully, you are now ready to quit for good.

Hug

bellakeller

It was so much easier for me to quit fighting than waste more time and energy, my life and health trying to moderate. I am glad you're finding relief.

Much love.

EmeraldRose

Welcome back!

Kjell

Hi Eclipse and welcome back.

You never have to drink again and why waste anymore of your life when you know moderation just won't work.

I hope you're willing to do whatever it takes to stay sober and live with purpose.

Kjell~

Lovelife27

Day 1 for me too! Let's DO IT!

reggiewayne

I have a disease, that tells me I don't have a disease. A Mental obsession followed by an actual physical craving for more. If you're at this point, moderation is no longer an option. It's just a lie.

My disease masks these lies with language that will appeal to me. "You deserve one, quit being so uptight, you're different than those drunks, you have your shiz together now - it's ok". All are lies. The truth is I will end up drinking alone, I will end up drinking much more than I intend to, I will end up not liking myself, calling in sick to work, and on and on...

I wish you the best. For me, it's much easier to drink 0 drinks than it is 4.

Dee74

Glad to see you back Eclipse

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Eclipse

Thanks. My panic becomes what will i do with myself all evening if I am not drinking? I know its better when I don't because I have been there before...just dreading going home tonite.

Dee74

Try not to panic about it...just take it evening by evening....

gradually I found I incorporated new things to do - DVDs, posting here, exercise, cooking more elaborately, new hobbies...you'll be ok

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Kjell

So don't go home.

This is where going to an AA meeting would be a great idea.

Even if you're not thrilled about the idea, you always have a place to go where there are people just like you working on a common problem - alcoholism.

Kjell~

Eclipse

Took my son to a movie last night. It was great.

BurningChrome

In my pre-drinking days, besides doing "normal stuff", I was a voracious reader. I read everything in sight, books ranging from anthropology to autobiographies of people I admired, to science fiction... at least 500 pages a week. I am slowly sliding back into that brain stimulating habit. Also, 60 minutes a day on an exercise bike while watching interesting shows I recorded on the discovery channel, history channel, science channel, etc. helps tremedously with your recovery, your health, your appetite, your sleep patterns, etc. (no exercise bike? It's spring, make it a habit to go out for a fast paced hour walk around the neighborhood, discover streets you never knew were there). Just keep busy! As I have seen here and said myself, especially in early recovery, large blocks of unplanned time is an accident waiting to happen! This may not be true for all or even most people, but I know it's true for me!
Hang in there!
..Mike

UofI2008

I've found in my short period of sobriety that going to a movie or reading a book are a great way to take my mind off drinking. It allows me to escape myself and my own self pity and jump into something outside of myself.

lyddie

Welcome back Eclipse. I remember you when I first joined SR posting in the thread for those who never could get beyond 14 days sober. I now finally have 9 months of sobriety. You can do it too.