Thank you all...
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Thank you all...
Just a post to express my sincere thanks to everybody on SR who posted and gave me hope on my thread the other day. It is very much appreciated and I can't explain how grateful I am to you all.
Tonight I am feeling like this horrific episode is the best thing that could have happened to me. It did happen to me, so it will be the best thing that happened to me, and I accept it as being a part of my journey and has happened for a reason. I am feeling very grateful tonight and have made good progress on many fronts. I gained such incredible clarity from this episode and it has been an absolutely horrific week in many ways. I know where happines is, and peace of mind, and I know it is indeed possible and I am looking forward to rebuilding myself and taking my recovery on to the next level. I truly don't feel like I've lost any of my previous recovery time and in some ways feel like it has been given the chance to be increased and improved upon. Picking up again was my cry for help and it was neccessary for me to go there to get me to ask for help again, so I am very grateful.
I am proud of the life I built up and am so grateful for all of the nice things that I have, most of which is respect and admiration from people, and I know that I can use this experience to help other young people going through the same sort of stuff in the future, and be able to relate 100% as I went through it myself.
Peace
Tonight I am feeling like this horrific episode is the best thing that could have happened to me. It did happen to me, so it will be the best thing that happened to me, and I accept it as being a part of my journey and has happened for a reason. I am feeling very grateful tonight and have made good progress on many fronts. I gained such incredible clarity from this episode and it has been an absolutely horrific week in many ways. I know where happines is, and peace of mind, and I know it is indeed possible and I am looking forward to rebuilding myself and taking my recovery on to the next level. I truly don't feel like I've lost any of my previous recovery time and in some ways feel like it has been given the chance to be increased and improved upon. Picking up again was my cry for help and it was neccessary for me to go there to get me to ask for help again, so I am very grateful.
I am proud of the life I built up and am so grateful for all of the nice things that I have, most of which is respect and admiration from people, and I know that I can use this experience to help other young people going through the same sort of stuff in the future, and be able to relate 100% as I went through it myself.
Peace
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Nice post, Neo! You've been a great inspiration to me here during the past couple of years. Sounds like you're really ready for some solid recovery. Keep us posted on your progress
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Many of us have learned alot from you, Neo - so it's only natural we would want to support you when you tripped. You mean alot to SR and to me personally. You're back now - onward and upward to even greater days ahead.
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I am glad that you are getting back on track. You know I don't believe the adage that relapses are a part of recovery, but the reality is that many of us will experience them (I sure did) and the best thing to do is to learn what you can from it and move on. It sounds like that is what you are doing. My last drinking binge, though not as bad as many others I had, did get me that sense of clarity and changed my direction in recovery.
I'd noticed before that while you were noting many positives about your own recovery, there was sometimes a sense of nostalgia or sentimentality about drinking. I have that too sometimes though I think it is mainly for the early days of my drinking, which I know I can no longer return to.
There are times when recovery feels exciting and we are making great progress, other times when it feels like it is slower and stagnating somewhat, maybe even going backwards, but it does get going again and you can make a new breakthrough.
I'd noticed before that while you were noting many positives about your own recovery, there was sometimes a sense of nostalgia or sentimentality about drinking. I have that too sometimes though I think it is mainly for the early days of my drinking, which I know I can no longer return to.
There are times when recovery feels exciting and we are making great progress, other times when it feels like it is slower and stagnating somewhat, maybe even going backwards, but it does get going again and you can make a new breakthrough.
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Neo, I'm glad you made it back in one piece. For what it's worth, I had a dream Sunday night that you and I relapsed together at a bar (I guess I have been spending too much time on SR). We were both very bummed with ourselves. I hope you take this as a compliment. I know it's cyberspace, but your story helped me a little and I was obviously worried about you if you were in my subconscious like that. Welcome back!
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Neo..so glad you are back and just to let you know you have been an inspiration to me too...
InAFish..
I had a dream Sunday night that you and I relapsed together at a bar (I guess I have been spending too much time on SR).
This is too funny. I shared this in a PM with someone but I must post it now..I have never had a drinking dream so it was just so odd..the other night as I slept I was getting hammered with Pink. BUT Pink had purple hair and I couldn't figure out why. When I woke up..I didn't care why but my first thought was MAN I spend too much time on SR!
InAFish..
I had a dream Sunday night that you and I relapsed together at a bar (I guess I have been spending too much time on SR).
This is too funny. I shared this in a PM with someone but I must post it now..I have never had a drinking dream so it was just so odd..the other night as I slept I was getting hammered with Pink. BUT Pink had purple hair and I couldn't figure out why. When I woke up..I didn't care why but my first thought was MAN I spend too much time on SR!
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Originally Posted by NEOMARXIST 
I am proud of the life I built up and am so grateful for all of the nice things that I have, most of which is respect and admiration from people, and I know that I can use this experience to help other young people going through the same sort of stuff in the future, and be able to relate 100% as I went through it myself.
Peace
Thanks Neo, but Marxist, as in Carl? I'm here to tell you, communism doesn't work, except as a philosophy.
Oh! Except maybe this commune called SR.
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(((Neo))) - I have to agree with ((Dee)) - it's good to see you back to your old self. I also agree, it's not just the young you inspire...I'm 49, and you've inspired me more than a few times
Love, hugs, and prayers,
Amy
Love, hugs, and prayers,
Amy
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Hey Neo, I missed your last post because I have been incredibliy busy over the last weeks and have not logged on to SR during that time.
I'm really glad that you made it back inone piece and that you feel better. Maybe this really had to happen so you could see that there are still things that you need to adress to feel truly happy and content. And I'm sure you will tackle them, as you did with all the other things you managed to change in your life.
Also, I think it's great that you have such a positive attitude about your negative experiences, and that you accept them as an opportunity to grow rather than dwelling on them. Hugs, and have a nice sober weekend,
S.
I'm really glad that you made it back inone piece and that you feel better. Maybe this really had to happen so you could see that there are still things that you need to adress to feel truly happy and content. And I'm sure you will tackle them, as you did with all the other things you managed to change in your life.
Also, I think it's great that you have such a positive attitude about your negative experiences, and that you accept them as an opportunity to grow rather than dwelling on them. Hugs, and have a nice sober weekend,
S.
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