Goin' out...
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Goin' out...
I've noticed that people in AA meetings refer to relapses as "going out." For me, going to an AA meeting feels like goin' out. Let me explain...
For the last I don't know how many months, my daily routine has pretty unwaveringly been get up, go to work, come home, drink alone until bedtime. On the weekends - get up, do what's necessary to be able to work next week (ie laundry, housecleaning, grocery shopping), come home, drink alone until bedtime. I resisted any variance to the routine, giving excuse after lame excuse to turn down the occasional invitation until they practically disappeared, and when I couldn't avoid a social situation, I'd stress over it for days and almost always have a few drinks downed before I got there.
Well, this is only my second day sober and I just got back from my second AA meeting in two days. I soooooooo DID NOT want to go to either of them, but something in me made me do it and on both occasions I spent an hour with some very wise people who were very very kind to me when the meeting was over. So now, at the time of night that I rarely remember anything after, I'm feeling alive and alert and happy to have been in the company I've been in.
Think I'll go out more often
For the last I don't know how many months, my daily routine has pretty unwaveringly been get up, go to work, come home, drink alone until bedtime. On the weekends - get up, do what's necessary to be able to work next week (ie laundry, housecleaning, grocery shopping), come home, drink alone until bedtime. I resisted any variance to the routine, giving excuse after lame excuse to turn down the occasional invitation until they practically disappeared, and when I couldn't avoid a social situation, I'd stress over it for days and almost always have a few drinks downed before I got there.
Well, this is only my second day sober and I just got back from my second AA meeting in two days. I soooooooo DID NOT want to go to either of them, but something in me made me do it and on both occasions I spent an hour with some very wise people who were very very kind to me when the meeting was over. So now, at the time of night that I rarely remember anything after, I'm feeling alive and alert and happy to have been in the company I've been in.
Think I'll go out more often
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Join Date: Mar 2011
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Support can do wonders for you... I always thought it was kinda cheesy to do things like AA or NA... but really there is no better way to start recovering then to realize that you are not alone. Congratulations on finding something that is making you feel better, and keep at it!
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Congrats Nancy, I know exactly what you are talking about. I still struggle with having to force myself into social situations, but I am pretty much always happy when I do it. It is especially wonderful when you do it and meet great people, or learn something about yourself.
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