100 Days Today!
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Join Date: Aug 2010
Location: Indianapolis, IN
Posts: 889
100 Days Today!
Ok, I think I might be at that point where I start counting months instead of days, but today I really do have 100 legit days without a drink. This is the most rewarding thing I've ever done in my entire life. Period. No questions asked.
When I came into recovery I was hopeless. I really mean that. Today I get to live my life the way I WANT to, not the way I HAVE to.
When I was drinking I was prisoner and jailer. I held the key to unlocking my cell but I just didn't realize it. I have learned so much about life in the past 100 days. I realize now, that I know far less than I thought I did when I was sick.
Today I am grateful, hopeful, happy, CONTENT, and I think a pretty decent person. I would have said none of that the start. I'm not sure why, but when I was drinking I didn't think I deserved to be happy, but today I realize that I am just as worthy to be happy as anyone else in this world. No more, no less, I'm just a spoke in the wheel...
What was different this time for me was action. I have averaged 6 meetings per week since getting into recovery. I average about 3 posts a day on this site (thanks for putting up with me). I have done things, without being asked by my wife, that she has wanted me to do forever (sweeping, dusting, cooking dinner, etc...) It was told to me that by helping others, I am the one that wins. I can say today after a few months of actually doing this, IT'S TRUE. I've also found a power greater than myself and when my cravings were the at their highest, ultimately I looked to it to get me through. It's worked!
I really want to thank everyone for their support and help. There have been times when I was so close to drinking, but I voiced the thoughts here, and you guys helped me. I will be forever grateful for that and these 100 days.
I wish you all the best. Off to a meeting then the gym! Happy Saturday!!!!
When I came into recovery I was hopeless. I really mean that. Today I get to live my life the way I WANT to, not the way I HAVE to.
When I was drinking I was prisoner and jailer. I held the key to unlocking my cell but I just didn't realize it. I have learned so much about life in the past 100 days. I realize now, that I know far less than I thought I did when I was sick.
Today I am grateful, hopeful, happy, CONTENT, and I think a pretty decent person. I would have said none of that the start. I'm not sure why, but when I was drinking I didn't think I deserved to be happy, but today I realize that I am just as worthy to be happy as anyone else in this world. No more, no less, I'm just a spoke in the wheel...
What was different this time for me was action. I have averaged 6 meetings per week since getting into recovery. I average about 3 posts a day on this site (thanks for putting up with me). I have done things, without being asked by my wife, that she has wanted me to do forever (sweeping, dusting, cooking dinner, etc...) It was told to me that by helping others, I am the one that wins. I can say today after a few months of actually doing this, IT'S TRUE. I've also found a power greater than myself and when my cravings were the at their highest, ultimately I looked to it to get me through. It's worked!
I really want to thank everyone for their support and help. There have been times when I was so close to drinking, but I voiced the thoughts here, and you guys helped me. I will be forever grateful for that and these 100 days.
I wish you all the best. Off to a meeting then the gym! Happy Saturday!!!!
unlearning
Join Date: Jan 2011
Location: russia
Posts: 343
Congratulations RW!
I think you have the thanks backwards. You need not thank me for "putting up with" your posts, nor thank me for support or help. Think you have done more for me than I for you, but we all win.
Keep on growin' and postin'.
I think you have the thanks backwards. You need not thank me for "putting up with" your posts, nor thank me for support or help. Think you have done more for me than I for you, but we all win.
Keep on growin' and postin'.
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Join Date: Dec 2010
Location: Dallas, TX
Posts: 325
Good to hear! My last drink was Dec. 4th so I am a couple days behind you.
Just went to my 3rd meeting last night and have already met many good and helpful people.
I am finally making it to meetings because I am a "high" bottom A, and am at a stage where I don't remember the bad moments of drinking and am starting to get cravings, etc. This last week has been the toughest for me out of the last 3+ months because things at work, etc are looking good for once, so yea I am forgetting what I used to be.
Just went to my 3rd meeting last night and have already met many good and helpful people.
I am finally making it to meetings because I am a "high" bottom A, and am at a stage where I don't remember the bad moments of drinking and am starting to get cravings, etc. This last week has been the toughest for me out of the last 3+ months because things at work, etc are looking good for once, so yea I am forgetting what I used to be.
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Join Date: Aug 2007
Location: Upstate New York
Posts: 51,569
Go Reggiewayne! You're doing it right. I've enjoyed your posts from the beginning, and they have definitely helped remind me of the struggle we go through. Never want to go back there again.
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Join Date: Feb 2010
Location: Toronto, ON
Posts: 1,591
If there comes a point in time when you start to mess up how long it's been, that is probably a good sign too. I think of that as being grateful "any old day". Some people say that watching the time stack up is not that useful, but it all depends on the perspective. Sometimes it is an important ritual (whether through the Sobertime thingy at the top of this site or your own calendar watching). I like to think of it as respecting the time put in when I check my own length of sobriety and granting myself some credit. But I also allow myself to step back from it and just let life go on too. I suppose if I can do that (and not be sure 24/7 how far I am after neglecting to check), that means I am benefitting from the freedom from drinking.
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