Ok i'll do anything!!!!!!
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Ok i'll do anything!!!!!!
I can't take it anymore. I just lost my job. I just messed up an entire semester of school. My mattress is disgusting, rancid smelling. What is it gonna take for me to GET MY HEAD OUT MY A S S? I think I'm mentally ill. No DUI's, that's all I can say. Well, this is that proverbial "Gift of Desperation" right? Time for me to go to any lenghts to get better. I'm a broken desperate man. I don't want to sound whiny but I dunno what to do.
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I feel ya. I think I was at the same point you seem to be. I had to check myself into rehab and start on a vigorous course of action with AA. It's the only thing that has worked for me thus far.
Is it possible for you to check into local rehab facilities?
Is it possible for you to check into local rehab facilities?
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I know *I* was mentally ill.
The disease was called alcoholism.
Desperation IS a gift, if you use it. Drag your butt to an AA meeting, preferably TODAY, while you still feel desperate. These are sometime small windows of desperation that can close once we talk ourselves into another drink in order to feel better. Of course, we do, briefly, and sometimes we can control it, briefly, and suddenly we seem to have no problem again.
Until, of course, we do.
Use this window while it's open.
The disease was called alcoholism.
Desperation IS a gift, if you use it. Drag your butt to an AA meeting, preferably TODAY, while you still feel desperate. These are sometime small windows of desperation that can close once we talk ourselves into another drink in order to feel better. Of course, we do, briefly, and sometimes we can control it, briefly, and suddenly we seem to have no problem again.
Until, of course, we do.
Use this window while it's open.
i've done my almost
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Originally Posted by LexieCat 
I know *I* was mentally ill.
The disease was called alcoholism.
Desperation IS a gift, if you use it. Drag your butt to an AA meeting, preferably TODAY, while you still feel desperate. These are sometime small windows of desperation that can close once we talk ourselves into another drink in order to feel better. Of course, we do, briefly, and sometimes we can control it, briefly, and suddenly we seem to have no problem again.
Until, of course, we do.
Use this window while it's open.
The disease was called alcoholism.
Desperation IS a gift, if you use it. Drag your butt to an AA meeting, preferably TODAY, while you still feel desperate. These are sometime small windows of desperation that can close once we talk ourselves into another drink in order to feel better. Of course, we do, briefly, and sometimes we can control it, briefly, and suddenly we seem to have no problem again.
Until, of course, we do.
Use this window while it's open.
I couldn't agree with Lexie more on her entire post.
Suic - you're going to need to take action to take care of your alcholism. Thinking and talking about it just won't cut it, no matter how desperate you are.
Can you go to an AA meeting today/tonight? No excuses, no reasons why you can't, just go.
I had to change who I was or the same me will drink again, and again, and again. Maybe this is true with you too?
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Suic -
I've been in that place more than once and as much as they were horrible, terrible, they pushed me to change myself and my life, to do what I had to do to get better, and that willingness has given me a life I never would have expected - full of peace and serenity and days I wake up without needing a drink. But I had to take action. I never thought I would live without pain but at the end it no longer mattered since nothing could have been worse than what I was going through at the time.
Meetings, rehabs, 12-steps, SMART Recovery...
It's all here, if you want to use it.
I've been in that place more than once and as much as they were horrible, terrible, they pushed me to change myself and my life, to do what I had to do to get better, and that willingness has given me a life I never would have expected - full of peace and serenity and days I wake up without needing a drink. But I had to take action. I never thought I would live without pain but at the end it no longer mattered since nothing could have been worse than what I was going through at the time.
Meetings, rehabs, 12-steps, SMART Recovery...
It's all here, if you want to use it.
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Nothing is as important as the moment. Stand up, dust off, and get help, now. You've got the rest of your life waiting for you to live. I can be better if you start. Go do it and check back with us. We're here for you.
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Join Date: Mar 2011
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I've got about a week on ya, mate. I was feeling EXACTLY like you - one week later I'm starting to feel really positive about my recovery. Meds have been a godsend but the key was my decision - this has to stop NOW. DO IT!
ps. Get your mattress out into the sun for as long as you can - UV kills all the little nasties and dries it out :-).
ps. Get your mattress out into the sun for as long as you can - UV kills all the little nasties and dries it out :-).
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Suic, WELCOME !! Yes you do know what to do. You already did it. You posted here didn't ya ? you reached out, to a certain extent the worst is over. The people on this board will help get you pointed in the right direction now. PLEASE keep reading and posting here. Believe it or not your post may very well have helped someone else stay sober today, that's how it works.
All the best, Ron
All the best, Ron
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Thanks for the posts everybody. Today I went to AA. I've been sober all day (unless you count the Clonazepam I took to ease the withdrawals). I liked it. No alcohol, or pot even left in the house
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Great work, keep comin' back!
It really, honestly does get better. It can be a little uncomfortable for awhile, and early sobriety has its ups and downs, but the more you throw yourself wholeheartedly into recovery, the better off you will be, and the more quickly it will pass.
Another meeting tomorrow?
It really, honestly does get better. It can be a little uncomfortable for awhile, and early sobriety has its ups and downs, but the more you throw yourself wholeheartedly into recovery, the better off you will be, and the more quickly it will pass.
Another meeting tomorrow?
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