lulukat

hello,can't believe its been a year and a half since i was here... started down the slippery slope of daily drinking again and guess what??? couldn't just stick w/2 drinks. really??? like i haven't tried this before?!!! just tired of this--feeling like such a failure,feeling,looking bad and "lying" to myself and others by sneaking around to drink. drank today but didn't get drunk.no alcohol yesterday.

mtnmagic

Welcome back lulucat! So glad you decided to give sobriety
another try. Please stick around and keep reading and posting.
SR is an absolute lifeline for me.

Belier

You can do this! You are so so worth it. I only finalised realised this myself. I am glad you came back here for support - it has been my saving grace.

Reubena

Hi Lula,

Glad you are back. I tried to control my drinking, stopping at "just 2" (for a while I just used bigger glasses), but it always led to a bottle and a half of wine every night. Trying to control my drinking was so time consuming, draining, sneaky and difficult. I finally hit bottom and realized that I can't drink at all. Not one. It really is emancipating... Life is so much better.

I signed on to SR in 2007... and I lasted a month or so. Briefly logged again in 2008 (or 2009). Finally, hit my bottom in March of 2010 and thankfully the third time seems to be a charm. I found a great group of people that I "hang" with in the Gratitude List": The Gratitude List - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information. It helps me to check in multiple times daily and it also makes me feel accountable.

Keep trying, don't give up...

Taking5

Welcome back. You have done all of us a favor by reminding us where we will inevitably end up if we drink again.

Keep coming back. We are here if you need us.

least

Welcome back. I wish you success this time.

Kmber2010

Welcome back lulu! We are here and yes we can change. Toss the bottle, get support. I found I needed help and when I was truly done drinking.....I had nothing to lose and gave 100% to my recovery.

Looking forward to the journey!!

Dee74

Welcome back lulukat

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Jabbadabutt

Isn't it amazing how much physical and mental effort it takes to our control drinking??
It is insanity.

I tried to moderate too............fail.

Had to learn that and accept it ----in order to move on and come back here, get help, and try again. So far so good.

Roadr440

No one said this was easy lulukat, it's not the falling down but the getting up that matters.. Never Never Never Give Up! For me I had to work a program of recovery to my best ability and I find overtime it gets better little by little. What I'm trying to say is choosing some kind of program is the way to go. And just like ring said your so worth it!

All the best to you and keep posting it helps.

EmeraldRose

We've all been there, I think. I'm new here 25 days for me -but glad you came back. We have to stick together for support.
I've had the same situations...clean for a week...month, a year...then *wham* all my trials down the drain. Then I get mad at myself and literally pour it down the drain. This has been going on for the past 20 years. I'm tired and this time these past 25 days will be a milestone to a forever sobriety.
Good Luck to you.

EmeraldRose

No one said this was easy lulukat, it's not the falling down but the getting up that matters..


That reminds me of an old japanese proverb
Fall down 7 times -get up 8.

So true -never give up!!