aasharon90

Hi. I'm Sharon and Im an Alcoholic
here living in Baton Rouge, La. sober
for the past 20 yrs.

Extremely grateful for having a
program of recovery to live and
breathe by.

I didnt just wake up one day
and say I want to become an
alcoholic or drug addict.

However the circumstances
surrounding my life and the
choices I made dictated who
and what I have become today.

Could I have stopped that baby
tiger that grew inside me to
becoming a farocious animal
destroying people and things
in it's path before it got worse?

I tried many many times to
only fail. and each time I failed
the progression of my alcoholism
grew and grew.

For those not alcoholics or
drug addicts, they can never
understand what it like to
be one.

Maybe they tried to drink
or use, but for some weird
reason it just didnt turn
them on. It just didnt do
it for them like the real
alcoholic or drug addict
has.

Can a non drinker or user
become an alcoholic or
drug addict? Can
the alcoholic or drug addict
become a sober or clean
person?

Alcoholics and addicts can
become sober and clean and
live normal lives like non drinkers
and non addicts with a program
of recovery to live by.

For the non drinker or non
addict....try living life like an
alcoholic or drug addict.

Can it be done?

I dont think so. They dont
have that component inside
themselves that would make
them drug addicts or
alcoholics.

Just my thoughts.

whiskerkissed

This is SO true! I tried for MANY years to stop. I knew the damage I was doing to others and myself. The mental obsession and physical dependence was too all-consuming. I didn't know there was a way out.

To try and make a non-addict/alkie understand is out of my control. The saying goes "If I have to explain it you wouldn't understand". I'm still early in recovery with my second round. I see others living normal lives and hope to get there one day. With the program of recovery - I'm getting closer. The disease will always be there, however. Live normal - yes - but the thought process for me still goes back to what I know best. First thoughts are of using - but my actions will be different today. I want to get better.

We do Recover!

NEOMARXIST

Thanks for your post Sharon! Non-alcoholics would never truly be able to understand - I find some non-alcoholics to obviously be much more in tune than others, but then that's life and they're generally more that way inclined in their personality. Different people have different personalities and some people are much more in tune with their feelings/psyche.

Only another alkie could possibly understand another alkie, there is definately an instant connection of some sort there on a much deeper level - again like anything then some people much more than others.

I too am so grateful to have my recovery program to live by 'one day at a time'. It makes my life so much calmer and happier!!

It's funny how much the word 'alcoholic' can seemingly cause people so much trouble and keep them living in misery taking that first drink sooner or later and losing control again. I haven't had one negative comment from anybody literally, nothing but support and respect if anything. But then again I ain't got nothing to be ashamed of and I am very grateful for knowing I'm an alcoholic as it means I don't have to be ashamed of being a drunk anymore and embarassing myself in front of all the new friends/people that I meet. It's a beautiful thing.

Peace