Hi Marni here, thought l'd say hi
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Hi Marni here, thought l'd say hi
l am a suburban wife and mother who also happens to be an alcoholic l found this site about 4 weeks ago and have started using it as a big part of my recovery but have not really told my story so here it is 
l never really can remember exactly when l "crossed the line and it all turned ugly"about 2001. l drank wine at home alone. l would drink after night shift until l passed out then get up for a couple of hours, drink some more and go to work drunk. l had everyone fooled, except my husband and daughters, no-one would ever have guessed l was an alcoholic. All lined up in a neat little row were the yets right in my face, my job, my marriage, my licence, and all the other yets . l didn't know what to do or where to go, my gran, an alcoholic, died never attempting to become sober... hence my user name.. she was known as Marnie. Oh l tried too many times to count not drinking until a certain time, only having X number of drinks, never even went 1 day sober, l was an individual living on the outside my family. My husband barely spoke to me and my girls never bothered to acknowledge my presence (not that l was really there). After a nasty argument with my best friend l finally said the words out loud "I AM AN ALCOHOLIC AND MY LIFE IS UNMANAGEABLE" now l had to do something about it. When l told my husband l was going into rehab he just replied "thank god" and those 2 words broke my heart. Well l've now been sober nearly 22 months. l've worked hard, l put as much effort into becoming sober as l did into lying, hiding, drinking alcohol and living in an alcoholic haze. My life is now better than l could ever have hoped for..l have my family back, l still work in the same profession but in a field l love, l count my blessings every morning and give my thanks every evening. Well that's some of my story, thanks for listening.
l never really can remember exactly when l "crossed the line and it all turned ugly"about 2001. l drank wine at home alone. l would drink after night shift until l passed out then get up for a couple of hours, drink some more and go to work drunk. l had everyone fooled, except my husband and daughters, no-one would ever have guessed l was an alcoholic. All lined up in a neat little row were the yets right in my face, my job, my marriage, my licence, and all the other yets . l didn't know what to do or where to go, my gran, an alcoholic, died never attempting to become sober... hence my user name.. she was known as Marnie. Oh l tried too many times to count not drinking until a certain time, only having X number of drinks, never even went 1 day sober, l was an individual living on the outside my family. My husband barely spoke to me and my girls never bothered to acknowledge my presence (not that l was really there). After a nasty argument with my best friend l finally said the words out loud "I AM AN ALCOHOLIC AND MY LIFE IS UNMANAGEABLE" now l had to do something about it. When l told my husband l was going into rehab he just replied "thank god" and those 2 words broke my heart. Well l've now been sober nearly 22 months. l've worked hard, l put as much effort into becoming sober as l did into lying, hiding, drinking alcohol and living in an alcoholic haze. My life is now better than l could ever have hoped for..l have my family back, l still work in the same profession but in a field l love, l count my blessings every morning and give my thanks every evening. Well that's some of my story, thanks for listening.
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