I've walked this plank before...(long)
Pirate
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Join Date: Jan 2011
Location: Machesney Park, IL
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I've walked this plank before...(long)
AHOY MATES, ME NAME...is not important...AND I BE AN ALCOHOLIC!
It be about 15 minutes since me last drink, and I don't be carin' to have another.
I been battlin' with this for some time now. I had posted somethin' in the first step section, but I had also been tryin' to make my introduction and it took so long that it logged me out. Blimey.
Anyway.
Me problem has been a problem for a long time, yet some of me crew be very forgivin' and that be a blessin' an' yet a curse.
*ALRIGHT NO MORE PIRATE TALK*
I had a black out this past summer, over some intense emotional drama.
That scared me, so I went to AA for a while, started to work the steps, but got stuck on #4, and never moved along after that. I over-analyzed the step and got lost.
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I then began drinking again as most of us have (not literally everyone) and just became the same old me all over again. This led to a lot of emotional flibbity flab that we've all heard before, which is why I don't divulge the full stories, we've all lived them before.
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My quantity doesn't matter. If I drink, I want to drink some more.
Fine example: Just started drinking one beer and am now thinking about the 7th. Yeah. I need to be here. (Not literally thinking about 7, it was just an example.)
In all honesty and I hope this doesn't cause trouble, but the above "pirate talk" about my last drink being 15 minutes is very true, and I am now ready to say **** you to alcohol, it's been a wonderful friend, but an even worse enemy. It's been my co-pilot for over 5 years now, and I'm glad I am kicking it out early. I just hope to find the support, and guidance through this forum since FTF meetings did ME no good. I always cared about the others at that damned table, but never myself ENOUGH, so I will try this, since it basically is a HUGE virtual table.
I'm done drinking, and I am ready to get better.
ANY help would be appreciated.
God bless you all, and even me.
It be about 15 minutes since me last drink, and I don't be carin' to have another.
I been battlin' with this for some time now. I had posted somethin' in the first step section, but I had also been tryin' to make my introduction and it took so long that it logged me out. Blimey.
Anyway.
Me problem has been a problem for a long time, yet some of me crew be very forgivin' and that be a blessin' an' yet a curse.
*ALRIGHT NO MORE PIRATE TALK*
I had a black out this past summer, over some intense emotional drama.
That scared me, so I went to AA for a while, started to work the steps, but got stuck on #4, and never moved along after that. I over-analyzed the step and got lost.
:I then began drinking again as most of us have (not literally everyone) and just became the same old me all over again. This led to a lot of emotional flibbity flab that we've all heard before, which is why I don't divulge the full stories, we've all lived them before.
:My quantity doesn't matter. If I drink, I want to drink some more.
Fine example: Just started drinking one beer and am now thinking about the 7th. Yeah. I need to be here. (Not literally thinking about 7, it was just an example.)
In all honesty and I hope this doesn't cause trouble, but the above "pirate talk" about my last drink being 15 minutes is very true, and I am now ready to say **** you to alcohol, it's been a wonderful friend, but an even worse enemy. It's been my co-pilot for over 5 years now, and I'm glad I am kicking it out early. I just hope to find the support, and guidance through this forum since FTF meetings did ME no good. I always cared about the others at that damned table, but never myself ENOUGH, so I will try this, since it basically is a HUGE virtual table.
I'm done drinking, and I am ready to get better.
ANY help would be appreciated.
God bless you all, and even me.
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Hi Rumless!!
I got to the point where it was just killing me..I was hungover all the time. Anxiety bad..until I drank again and lemme tell you I was in the cycle BIGTIME! Finally got sick of it. I found SR and SR is my AA. I have not had a big struggle. I hung in like a trooper..finally drank my quota. Everything and I mean everything you read here will be something to learn from. The support is like nothing I have ever seen. Welcome ~~
I got to the point where it was just killing me..I was hungover all the time. Anxiety bad..until I drank again and lemme tell you I was in the cycle BIGTIME! Finally got sick of it. I found SR and SR is my AA. I have not had a big struggle. I hung in like a trooper..finally drank my quota. Everything and I mean everything you read here will be something to learn from. The support is like nothing I have ever seen. Welcome ~~
Not waving, but drowning
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Hi and welcome!
Glad you are posting. Although I must say, being a pirate so far from the ocean must be difficult
I did appreciate the pirate humor, but hope you stay and post seriously for your own sake. There is a lot of great support here.
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Glad you are posting. Although I must say, being a pirate so far from the ocean must be difficult
I did appreciate the pirate humor, but hope you stay and post seriously for your own sake. There is a lot of great support here.D
Forward we go...side by side-Rest In Peace
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Location: Serene In Dixie
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Hi...and again....Welcome....
Many of our members are winning over alcohol
and yes....some of us do use AA...others do not.
Hope you find joy and success on your journey
Many of our members are winning over alcohol
and yes....some of us do use AA...others do not.
Hope you find joy and success on your journey
Trudging that road.
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Location: Seattle Wa
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Hey welcome to SR, and the pirate talk reminds me of pirate days in Seattle you would fit right in with that crew lol. Yeah Some people get and stay sober through AA some don't. Whatever works for you its your journey but with that said I also have to remember at the times I said AA didn't work for me it was because I gave up on AA not the other way around. (but that is only my ESH). Keep the Faith 
Pirate
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OI! Me thanks must be given out!
I certainly feel support already! I do hope to learn many things while I be stayin' here and sober.
BTW, bein' a pirate so far from the sea is a bit tryin'. At least I got Lake Michigan...
I certainly feel support already! I do hope to learn many things while I be stayin' here and sober.
BTW, bein' a pirate so far from the sea is a bit tryin'. At least I got Lake Michigan...
Eating protein and life.
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Hi-ho welcome to th' forums glad ye decided to stop drinkin' th' beverage not fit fer th' barnacles. It be a jolly hour to stop th' drink 'n gather like-minded pirates in ye quest fer sobriety.
Pirate
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Again, thank you everyone for your kind supportive words.
I'm afraid that I might be having some symptoms of a bad nature.
I've been hearing strange sounds lately, last night I heard one, and just a minute ago I thought I heard someone, who isn't home, call my name. I'm also kinda fatigued, queezy, and I keep seeing tiny flashes of flight once in a while...I hope this is just something quirky, and not some kind of detox that's going to get rougher...
I'm afraid that I might be having some symptoms of a bad nature.
I've been hearing strange sounds lately, last night I heard one, and just a minute ago I thought I heard someone, who isn't home, call my name. I'm also kinda fatigued, queezy, and I keep seeing tiny flashes of flight once in a while...I hope this is just something quirky, and not some kind of detox that's going to get rougher...
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I don't want to alarm you...but hallucinations are never a good sign...
Detox is definitely not something to mess around with.
If you think you need medical care - don't hesitate to call someone, RP.
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Detox is definitely not something to mess around with.
If you think you need medical care - don't hesitate to call someone, RP.
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Pirate
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Originally Posted by Dee74 
RP.
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Hallucinations being the light flashes I have seen?
Another side note, after I drank this morning and got off the net, I decided to shave, because we were having an event at my Cigar store today, so I decided clean up, but then I shaved my head too...channeling Britney Spears I guess, lol...?
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welcome rumless to SR, 
l find SR to be a wonderful support in my sobriety and come here daily to read the posts, always getting a lot of good ideas about taking one day at a time and the importance of not picking up that first drink.
Though no-one can go back and make a new start,
anyone can start today and make a new ending.
Carl Bard
l find SR to be a wonderful support in my sobriety and come here daily to read the posts, always getting a lot of good ideas about taking one day at a time and the importance of not picking up that first drink.
Though no-one can go back and make a new start,
anyone can start today and make a new ending.
Carl Bard
Pirate
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Originally Posted by Anna
Please be careful.
Are you able to go to an ER?
Are you able to go to an ER?
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