Cyranoak

...for my most recent post on the thread about trying to kick out an alcoholic boyfriend/husband.

I just can't read those or post on them anymore and I won't. They trigger too much frustration in me and my sympathy turns to anger. I'm simply not equipped to understand folks in those situations.

Again, my apologies to you all. I need to take a break from the boards.

Cyranoak

transformyself

I can relate. I had to catch myself from getting all worked up, triggered too. It's hard. It's so tricky, we're all working very hard here

I hope you come back soon. For me, I learned to take deep breaths and come back later with acceptance.

Learnt that from Mike the fantastic helmit guy. And Givelove. And all the other wonderful mods here. They're working as hard as we are, to help keep us all sane while we're working. They all deserve medals or ice cream or something!

wicked

I second this and what transform said. The very fact that you recognized what it was is amazing. Please come back soon.
I look forward to your posts.
You have a great perspective.

Beth

(have some cake, it helps me. )

Jadmack25

Agree that while you may need a SHORT break for your own sake, please do return asap as I enjoy your posts. Anywhere there is abuse and violence towards family members, I can feel my stomach churn so I know what you feel and so many others here also feel that way.

Take care.

barb dwyer

happens, hon.

I call it 'the distance' ...
gotta keep the appropriate distance
or we go too far the OTHER way.

It's also difficult when it's someone you really like...
another attachment.

naive

cyranoak-

a plea...don't leave us...you bring a lot here...however, do what you need to do for your own recovery...i've contemplated leaving here more than once myself...i understand...

brokenheartfool

Don't know the post but it doesn't matter.
Need the males here, as you give the over abundance of females here that other perspective, and we love it. Many times you're so on and can be very funny.
Gonna chastize yourself for being imperfect?
You've lived with an alcoholic long enough that you are be definition codie, and as all of us, prone to sometimes knee-jerk reactions, over-reactions, emotional reactions, tense reactions, and just plain reactional!

From another changed forever terminally reactive codie.

LaTeeDa

I know exactly how you feel. Abusive or potentially abusive situations trigger me, too. I want to help, but I'm not really qualified.

Alanon is a great program, but I learned on this board that Alanon principles applied to an abusive situation sometimes spells disaster. Even though abuse and alcoholism sometimes coexist, they are two distinctly different problems, and sometimes "detaching" is the worst possible thing for an abuse victim to do. I remember reading this thread several years ago, which made it very clear.

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...andwiches.html

Having been in a verbally/emotionally abusive marriage did not prepare me for understanding those in physically abusive situations. This sticky helped me understand it a little better.

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...sed-woman.html

Don't be so hard on yourself. Keep hanging around here and you will learn a lot about so many things. I know I have.

L

transformyself

Here's an update on the microwave killer. Sorry to T/J but I"m compelled to do follow up

UNIONTOWN, Pa. -- A Fayette County man has died in prison less than a month after he was sentenced to life in prison for beating his girlfriend to death with a microwave oven.

Prison officials said 60-year-old Walter Fordyce, of Uniontown, died Friday at Holy Spirit Hospital at the State Correctional Facility in Camp Hill, Cumberland County.

Fordyce had been in the prison since he was convicted Feb. 5 of stomping on 54-year-old Mary McCann after hitting her with the microwave at their home in April 2006. Police said Fordyce attacked the woman after a day of drinking that ended with a fatal argument over a roast beef sandwich.

Jurors deliberated for 30 minutes before finding Fordyce guilty of first-degree murder.

lillamy

((((Cyrano))))

OK, but if you have to take a break, can we at least go out for coffee and swear over the weather or politics or whatever sports team is losing lately?

I have trigger subjects, too, and I know what it's like when you just want to smack people into action. For me, though, it's pretty easy to remind myself that there have been people wanting to smack me into action for the better part of 20 years...

Take care of yourself, man. You're a good egg.

westbank

I for one enjoy reading what you have to say and hey I thought we were supposed to take what we want and leave the rest???? Please don't be so hard on yourself.

kia

please dont go away for too long we like u on here xxxxkia

Jazzman

You ain't seen nothin yet until you've had a public wee wee whacking by a triggered MOD.

Many times I should have just kept my fingers shut, fortunately many more times I do. Just never compromise on the straight talk.

vujade

We are human and humans FEEL. Detaching doesn't mean you don't feel for people. It's hard to read about the things that happen in homes plagued by alcoholism. Sometimes I find that I have to not read such posts. Even though I want to provide support, it can be too emotionally charging to allow me to stay neutral.

You have a pragmatic way of viewing various situations and that is valuable even if at times a bit difficult to swallow. We always have the choice to either take what you say or leave it. That's our right as participants in this forum.

You're a great guy, Cy, and you have wise thoughts and valuable input. But we all need some breathing room sometimes. Recognizing that is an indication of where you are in recovery. Good for you!

StarCat

Cyranoak, I have always taken a lot out of all of your posts that I have read - some of them talk about truths that I have been unwilling to admit, others have followed patterns of behavior that I am learning I follow frequently, ALL of them have helped me in some way or shape or form, and I have found none that been "personally objectionable" (I do not take offense to any of your posts).

I know some day I avoid this forum because I don't feel it would be healthy for me to read, other days I have avoided posting but kept reading because I felt that was healthiest. You need to do what you feel is right for yourself.

Just... Please come back when you're ready? You bring a lot of good here, and I will sorely miss it while you're on your hiatus. <3