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the illogical vulcan
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Hello...
Hi everyone this is my first post and I'm not really sure what to say I'm new to all this and not quite sure how to start. I'll just say that I hope this can be a place for me to vent and get some moral support and get that damn little devil off my shoulder. I'll come clean and say that I am not 100% sober yet but I am trying and hopefully I'll find my way. Sometimes it's nice just to be able to talk.
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It all starts with taking action, and you've done that. Good for you! You'll find lots of people here who have been through exactly what you're experiencing, formed a plan, and then put it into action.
The hardest thing for me—the thing that kept me drinking for three or four years after I realized I needed to quit—was imagining what I life would be like without alcohol; what would I do every night? How boring! How cold and empty! Turns out life is SOOOOOOO much better on the other side. Good things await you!
The hardest thing for me—the thing that kept me drinking for three or four years after I realized I needed to quit—was imagining what I life would be like without alcohol; what would I do every night? How boring! How cold and empty! Turns out life is SOOOOOOO much better on the other side. Good things await you!
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Hi invisigoth! Welcome... is that name from a novel? I read one years ago that had invisigoths in it, it was about people eating these feathers to journey mentally... You will find support here and reading the experiences of others may be helpful as well. I am glad you are with us!
Hi invisigoth!
Welcome, this is my first time here too and it's my birthday today. I am sober 5 years and hope to provide some help for the newcomer. Simply from not drinking things started to fall into place, I remember that a few people said "Wow do you look better" little things like that started to happen. In the beginning I attended as many AA meetings as possible, I did 90 meetings in 90 days.
Good luck,
The first step is always difficult, the rewards will come!
Welcome, this is my first time here too and it's my birthday today. I am sober 5 years and hope to provide some help for the newcomer. Simply from not drinking things started to fall into place, I remember that a few people said "Wow do you look better" little things like that started to happen. In the beginning I attended as many AA meetings as possible, I did 90 meetings in 90 days.
Good luck,
The first step is always difficult, the rewards will come!
Hey invisigoth:
Glad you made it!!
I don't know if you've taken a gander at The Big Book yet (the AA manual), but if you get some time, you might want to take a peek. I went to an AA meeting in August of 2009 and was given one. I took it home, stuck it in a drawer and never opened it. I didn't go back to AA either because I thought for sure it was something I could do on my own (and trust me, you will hear that over and over and over again from folks who are and have been exactly where you are, right now). I wish I would have just read ONE story. Just one, and maybe I wouldn't have gone down the road I did for the following year. Dunno. Doesn't matter now. But trust me, they only continue to get darker...
But when I finally DID open the book and start reading... wow. Yep, that's me. Yep, that's me, Yep, yep, yep, yep. It was like someone opened my head and put all that inner ME stuff in book form, for me to stare at.
My first REAL AA meeting (when I finally owned I was powerless), I was so scared, embarrassed, ashamed -- I went with someone who is currently in AA, but I can tell you, it was all I could do to walk through that door.
To my utter and astounded amazement... not one ounce of condemnation or judgment from anyone. They all said hello and smiled at me with such warmth and acceptance, so glad I had made it through the door, I nearly started bawling right then and there. After the meeting started and I listened to the people talk (it was a discussion meeting), I knew for certain I was where I needed to be. Even though we were all from different walks of life, there was absolutely no denying (for me anyway) the common truths that came out of every one of them (and was my truth as well).
They all want to get better, and they all want each other to get better. I've never experienced anything like it in my life.
Not pushing it on you, at all... just sharing.
Glad you made it!!
I don't know if you've taken a gander at The Big Book yet (the AA manual), but if you get some time, you might want to take a peek. I went to an AA meeting in August of 2009 and was given one. I took it home, stuck it in a drawer and never opened it. I didn't go back to AA either because I thought for sure it was something I could do on my own (and trust me, you will hear that over and over and over again from folks who are and have been exactly where you are, right now). I wish I would have just read ONE story. Just one, and maybe I wouldn't have gone down the road I did for the following year. Dunno. Doesn't matter now. But trust me, they only continue to get darker...
But when I finally DID open the book and start reading... wow. Yep, that's me. Yep, that's me, Yep, yep, yep, yep. It was like someone opened my head and put all that inner ME stuff in book form, for me to stare at.
My first REAL AA meeting (when I finally owned I was powerless), I was so scared, embarrassed, ashamed -- I went with someone who is currently in AA, but I can tell you, it was all I could do to walk through that door.
To my utter and astounded amazement... not one ounce of condemnation or judgment from anyone. They all said hello and smiled at me with such warmth and acceptance, so glad I had made it through the door, I nearly started bawling right then and there. After the meeting started and I listened to the people talk (it was a discussion meeting), I knew for certain I was where I needed to be. Even though we were all from different walks of life, there was absolutely no denying (for me anyway) the common truths that came out of every one of them (and was my truth as well).
They all want to get better, and they all want each other to get better. I've never experienced anything like it in my life.
Not pushing it on you, at all... just sharing.
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Welcome
I heard someone say:
"I could not stay sober, you could not stay sober, but together we can stay sober."
One alcoholic helping another. A "We" program.
There are many people here to help, so yes, you have found a good place!
Another person in AA that I know would say, "Now, what's the plan?" !
I heard someone say:
"I could not stay sober, you could not stay sober, but together we can stay sober."
One alcoholic helping another. A "We" program.
There are many people here to help, so yes, you have found a good place!
Another person in AA that I know would say, "Now, what's the plan?" !
the illogical vulcan
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Hi invisigoth! Welcome... is that name from a novel? I read one years ago that had invisigoths in it, it was about people eating these feathers to journey mentally... You will find support here and reading the experiences of others may be helpful as well. I am glad you are with us!
Welcome. It has taken me 4 years to get 35 days sober. It can be a process, doesn't have to be, but for me it was. I had to come to the point where I really admitted and believed that I was powerless over alcohol. I said it right away when I quit 4 years ago, but I didn't believe until recently. Talk is cheap. It's much more important what we do, rather than what we think.
I'm glad you are taking positive steps in your life. Please stick around long enough to expierience the miracle to not obsess about the first drink!!! Good luck to you!!!
I'm glad you are taking positive steps in your life. Please stick around long enough to expierience the miracle to not obsess about the first drink!!! Good luck to you!!!
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