Something's gotta give
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Join Date: Dec 2010
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Something's gotta give
I've been here before and hope this site will aid me in my battle once again.
I see some familiar people here that I know from the past.
I was once Richard54 on here but cant figure out my old login so I am now Richard56...
Yes it is two years later and I'm back again with my tail between my legs.
I decided to have a beer on Friday.
Ended up drinking 6 12packs over Friday, Saturday and Sunday.
I find the amount hard to believe myself but trust me... it's true.
The guy in the liquor store gave me really weird looks when I went in twice both on Saturday and Sunday.
.
I woke up (or rather came to) this morning still wearing the same clothes I was wearing on Friday.... underwear and all. Gross.
I guess I've reached the breaking point once again and I do not want to see that liquor store clerk smirking at me ever again.
This site really helped me in the past find long stretches of sobriety, so here I go again, warts and all.....
Thanks
I see some familiar people here that I know from the past.
I was once Richard54 on here but cant figure out my old login so I am now Richard56...
Yes it is two years later and I'm back again with my tail between my legs.
I decided to have a beer on Friday.
Ended up drinking 6 12packs over Friday, Saturday and Sunday.
I find the amount hard to believe myself but trust me... it's true.
The guy in the liquor store gave me really weird looks when I went in twice both on Saturday and Sunday.
.
I woke up (or rather came to) this morning still wearing the same clothes I was wearing on Friday.... underwear and all. Gross.
I guess I've reached the breaking point once again and I do not want to see that liquor store clerk smirking at me ever again.
This site really helped me in the past find long stretches of sobriety, so here I go again, warts and all.....
Thanks
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Join Date: Dec 2010
Posts: 21
I feel like a broken record. Over and over again, so many times.
I'm almost embarrassed and ashamed to come here yet again.
People here helped me so much in the past but it didn't stick and Im sure my close freinds here would be just as frustrated with me as I am with myself.
Anyway here I go again.
I'm beaten up enough.
I'm almost embarrassed and ashamed to come here yet again.
People here helped me so much in the past but it didn't stick and Im sure my close freinds here would be just as frustrated with me as I am with myself.
Anyway here I go again.
I'm beaten up enough.
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Join Date: Mar 2008
Location: SF Bay area, CA
Posts: 99,780
Welcome back!
I hope this can be your last attempt at staying sober.
I've got a year now, one day at a time, and my life has never been better. Still have problems but I handle them a lot better now. I'm glad you're back. 
I hope this can be your last attempt at staying sober. I've got a year now, one day at a time, and my life has never been better. Still have problems but I handle them a lot better now. I'm glad you're back. Resident
Join Date: Jan 2009
Location: Toronto, Ontario
Posts: 4,150
Welcome back Richard.
Looks like there are 3 of us starting again from the old class of January 2009 back at it.
Good luck to all of us.
I am on day 3 and VC is a bit ahead of us.
Here we go again.
Looks like there are 3 of us starting again from the old class of January 2009 back at it.
Good luck to all of us.
I am on day 3 and VC is a bit ahead of us.
Here we go again.
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Join Date: Apr 2010
Location: Mississippi
Posts: 7,910
Most all of us have been there, Richard, and we know what it's like. Posts like yours remind me that when we start drinking again, we lose all control. I'm so glad you decided to come back- we all deserve to get free from this!:ghug3
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Richard I saved one of your PM's from May of this year & just went back & read it again. You were really struggling then, and were trying to figure it all out. You were attempting to control it - and you said, "It always takes control of me, and I'm back to square one." Now you know (again) what needs to be done. This is the stage I had to reach too, after a lifetime of drinking. I wanted so badly to not give it up all together - but there was NO choice. I almost lost my life trying to manage it. I kept insisting it was a matter of willpower - which it isn't.
This last time you learned a valuable lesson that may stay with you forever. We are all pulling for you to get your life back. Be proud for coming here, never ashamed!
This last time you learned a valuable lesson that may stay with you forever. We are all pulling for you to get your life back. Be proud for coming here, never ashamed!
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Join Date: Nov 2010
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Hi Richard..glad you are here. I wish you would go back..there is a post here by GypsyFeet. It really struck a chord with me. It is a tragic relapse story and I very much identified with it.
I just went back and looked..it is the 3rd page..Newcomers section. Title: Sobriety is not always an option.
I just went back and looked..it is the 3rd page..Newcomers section. Title: Sobriety is not always an option.
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Originally Posted by Fubarcdn 
Welcome back Richard.
Looks like there are 3 of us starting again from the old class of January 2009 back at it.
Good luck to all of us.
I am on day 3 and VC is a bit ahead of us.
Here we go again.
Looks like there are 3 of us starting again from the old class of January 2009 back at it.
Good luck to all of us.
I am on day 3 and VC is a bit ahead of us.
Here we go again.
Personally, I would like to believe that after a year of sobriety, that I would certainly have the will power to say "no" in 99% of all situations - and I would make the effort to understand the "1%" that could be harmful. no doubt you have encountered the 1%..... Teach us what happened, and what to avoid - so we never do the same
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