New Start
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Join Date: Dec 2010
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New Start
Ok I have been thinking about this for months, and I finally feel like I am in a mental place where I can really have ago at quiting the booze and smokes and have a decent shot at success.
Alcohol has taken a lot from me. Ive lost 2 jobs, 3 girls, been booted for not paying the rent probably 4 times over the last 10 years. I crashed my car while reading .194 a couple of years ago, fortunately the only person I hurt was me. I wrote off a car worth 15G and insurance didn't cover it as I was DUI. I lost my license for 18 months and copped a $1500 fine. The repercussions from the crash eventually cost me my career in the military 9 months later.
And thats just the tip of it.
But I consider myself lucky. I always seem to land on my feet. I have my own business that is going well. A loving girlfriend and a great mother and father.
My girlfriend thinks I quit smoking a year ago believe it or not. I am living a lie. We are both back living with our parents saving some cash to move out early 2011 so when i sneak off to the sports club every night to down 4 beers after having had 4 at home with Dad she just assumes I'm doing paperwork. I gamble more than I should, because what else do u do when you are at a sport club alone, drinking.
Im sick of living a lie
I want to lose the 20Kg Ive packed on in the last year, be able to taste food properly, save the money I am wasting and do something positive with it and just live a healthy long life.
Im ready to stop hiding from reality behind a bottle and a smoke.
And Im looking forward to my new life, starting today.
Alcohol has taken a lot from me. Ive lost 2 jobs, 3 girls, been booted for not paying the rent probably 4 times over the last 10 years. I crashed my car while reading .194 a couple of years ago, fortunately the only person I hurt was me. I wrote off a car worth 15G and insurance didn't cover it as I was DUI. I lost my license for 18 months and copped a $1500 fine. The repercussions from the crash eventually cost me my career in the military 9 months later.
And thats just the tip of it.
But I consider myself lucky. I always seem to land on my feet. I have my own business that is going well. A loving girlfriend and a great mother and father.
My girlfriend thinks I quit smoking a year ago believe it or not. I am living a lie. We are both back living with our parents saving some cash to move out early 2011 so when i sneak off to the sports club every night to down 4 beers after having had 4 at home with Dad she just assumes I'm doing paperwork. I gamble more than I should, because what else do u do when you are at a sport club alone, drinking.
Im sick of living a lie
I want to lose the 20Kg Ive packed on in the last year, be able to taste food properly, save the money I am wasting and do something positive with it and just live a healthy long life.
Im ready to stop hiding from reality behind a bottle and a smoke.
And Im looking forward to my new life, starting today.
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Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: Australia
Posts: 211,369
Welcome again soberclown
Yeah protecting the lie and hiding my drinking - pretending everything was fine, fixing up the messes afterwards - was as exhausting as the drinking, hangovers etc.
good to have you with us, mate
D
Yeah protecting the lie and hiding my drinking - pretending everything was fine, fixing up the messes afterwards - was as exhausting as the drinking, hangovers etc.
good to have you with us, mate
D
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Join Date: Aug 2003
Location: Dancing in the Light
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Hi and Welcome,
Oh Dee is so right. I worked so hard to hide my drinking, to try to fix the messes the next day and make everything look okay. It really was exhausting. Honestly, it was such a relief to stop drinking and not have to be looking over my shoulder every minute of the day.
It sounds like you're ready to change your life.
Oh Dee is so right. I worked so hard to hide my drinking, to try to fix the messes the next day and make everything look okay. It really was exhausting. Honestly, it was such a relief to stop drinking and not have to be looking over my shoulder every minute of the day.
It sounds like you're ready to change your life.
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Join Date: Mar 2008
Location: SF Bay area, CA
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Welcome to the family!
Living sober really rocks. My whole life is different and better than I'd ever thought possible. Just staying sober has matured into a whole new lifestyle, one of contentment and joy in living, not fear and regret and self hatred.
I too was living a lie, but I was the only person believing that lie. Everyone else saw through it. I was only fooling myself.
You'll find a lot of support here. Lots of useful information too. And we're open 24/7, no matter where you are.
Living sober really rocks. My whole life is different and better than I'd ever thought possible. Just staying sober has matured into a whole new lifestyle, one of contentment and joy in living, not fear and regret and self hatred. I too was living a lie, but I was the only person believing that lie. Everyone else saw through it. I was only fooling myself.
You'll find a lot of support here. Lots of useful information too. And we're open 24/7, no matter where you are.
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Join Date: Sep 2010
Location: essex
Posts: 451
new start here 2
Hey Buddy, going to join you and make 8th dec 2010 my day too, i was here a few weeks ago, and messed up big style the weekend, just one long drunk weekend, and still not right to go to work, think am going to tell work why i was off, and going to the doc this evening. good luck
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Join Date: Jul 2010
Location: New England
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Welcome! A sober life is so much richer than a drinking life...people who think its boring are doing it wrong:-) its the greatest experience of my life and I hope you are enjoying all the rewards soon too!
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