Timebuster

This is for me, and for those who are suffering with a codependent broken heart, I share this poem with you.

I wish I never met you

I wish I never met you
I hate I can't forget you
You cause this pain within my chest
It won't decease, it will not rest


You raid my thoughts and haunt my dreams
To escape this fate, I am forced to see--

You,

The cancer that is killing me.

Captured and constricted, unable to breathe
With this feeling you continue to squeeze
The life from my veins until nothing remains.
The pain must stop, it cannot go on
I must send my memory of you to oblivion.
The image of you still lingers in my brain
An unstoppable force, I cannot detain


I use to think of you to deter my fears,
But today you create this pain that sears.

I want to forget you,
Hit delete, and
watch you fade away
To end the pain that
Destroys me each day


Poisoning my heart, polluting my mind
There's not a solution that I can find
But to try to forget the one who stole my heart
Brought me joy, and tore my life apart.
The one person who made me dream
Who made me feel and made me see

Before I met you, my life was black and white
The presence of you brought color to my life.


I woke up every morning to get lost in an angel's eyes
Believing the fable only feeding the virus
Of love dwelling inside my soul

You,

The one, my only goal.
Able to see, never to reach
but one day, this angel sat next to me

You became my friend and gave me a feeling I couldn't defend.
Overwhelmed with elation I wouldn't trade the sensation.
I was hypnotized, hoping you'd realize
That there isn't a person who'd love you like I do


I'd spend every moment next to you
Holding you in my arms
Protecting you from all harm.
I'd pick you up when you're down
Take your hand, walk across the town
Write You+Me with chalk all over the ground.
We'd lie in the grass and watch the clouds pass
I'd stare into your eyes,
Then confess
You're all I want in life.


This dream was shattered, ruined and battered
Although it might have been the day you looked my way,
I'm forced to say that meeting you was my greatest mistake

All I have is my broken heart, causing this paralyzing pain.

The roots of my despair, I'm sure you do not care


That YOU ARE the most prestigious present I will ever get

But I can't stand this feeling, so I wish we never met.


By Kunu

Do you have a poem to share, I would like to hear it.

TB

marley75

Wow. That describes codependency so well... I think that is what I am learning in Alanon, that I had my part in it, so it happened because I allowed it to. I am as addicted to him as he is to heroin... Thanks for this poem.

SereniTee

I wrote this song before I came into recovery- makes me want to puke now!

Didn't see you leave, you upped and left
You didn't hear me dry but, you know I wept
Didn't see you stalling, couldn't hear me calling
My head is hurting and my heart's a wreck
Perfect day turned, to lonely night
Throw down my defenses, prepare to fight

I can't sleep without you,
I'm caving into breaking
It's 23 past 2 by 4: 31 I'm still waiting
Can lie and scream that I don't care
A world away just over there,
A casulty of war it's true
I'm walking wounded cos of you

I drag myself around, all day
Desperate to forget you in some small way
The battle lines keep getting crossed
My heart is tearing and it just wont stop

(repeat chorus)

Haha SO Codie. I shortly followed this period in my life by becoming an alcoholic. 6 months clean and sober now!