Thoughts of my son Jason
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Thoughts of my son Jason
I feel like I' ve just existed
And now it's been 2 years
I don't know how I' ve lived and breathed
Without you being here.
I know you lived your lifetime
As short as that seems to me,
But the pain in my heart is still so great,
Yet I know your spirit is free.
At times I think I hear you
The thoughts come to my mind.
I struggle for the sound of your voice,
But your voice I cannot find.
Yet you come to me in many ways
So I know you did not die,
You want to tell me that you' re close,
And to please stop asking Why.
Our lives on earth seem all too brief,
Or brief as it seems to me.
But where you are is forever,
GOD calls that Eternit
Love you my dear Jason who died of herion overdose 11/19/08
Maggiemac
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(((Maggie))) Keeping you in my prayers today as you go through this difficult time. 
I hope that sharing your pain here helps you in some small way, knowing we understand as much as we can without having gone through it ourselves, and that we care.
Hugs
I hope that sharing your pain here helps you in some small way, knowing we understand as much as we can without having gone through it ourselves, and that we care.
Hugs
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Maggie
What a beautiful tribute to your son. I am so very sorry for your loss--I can't even--no---I don't want to imagine the pain and sorrow you feel. You are living what many of us fear most. Please know that you'll always have gentle hugs from me and prayers for you to find serenity.
gentle gentle hugs
What a beautiful tribute to your son. I am so very sorry for your loss--I can't even--no---I don't want to imagine the pain and sorrow you feel. You are living what many of us fear most. Please know that you'll always have gentle hugs from me and prayers for you to find serenity.
gentle gentle hugs
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Oh (((Maggie))), I wish I could hug you in real life. I'm so sorry. This is my worst nightmare, and I can't begin to imagine what you're going through, and have gone through. I lost a son at 3 monthes of age, and this is so much worse. I don't know the right words to say, Just know I'm hugging you and caring for you and wanting to take away your pain. I know that's not enough, I wish I could do more.
Huge and many hugs,
FGB
Huge and many hugs,
FGB
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Love and comfort to you at this difficult time. You have a wonderful way with words, and I imagine that what you wrote will touch others who need to read it.
Much love
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Much love
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maggie - i am so sorry for your loss - words do not exist that will bring the kind of comfort you desire - you honored your son's memory in such a beautiful and loving way - i will pray for God to bring you peace as you travel through the pain one more time -
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Maggiemac... That was a beautiful tribute for your beautiful child. Sending you hugs and prayers. I wish I could do more. I truly believe he has always been with you thru your darkest hours.
May you find your peace.
Gotahavfaith
May you find your peace.
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(((((((((((Maggiemac)))))))))))
I know the inconsolable longing you have for Jason,
longing that intensifies with time.
It feels like we will always find ourselves out-of-tune with this world
and all it celebrates because we have a longing for someone this earth
can never deliver.
If we had our way we would not be in the valley, but here we are.
The place where are sons use to be is now an ache that is bone deep.
We will not recover or get back to normal, but we will go ahead to the future,
which is yet to be discovered.
We move in that direction the best we can.
There will be good days, because we remember all the joy our sons
brought to our lives. We know they would want us to have joy and peace.
Trisha
I know the inconsolable longing you have for Jason,
longing that intensifies with time.
It feels like we will always find ourselves out-of-tune with this world
and all it celebrates because we have a longing for someone this earth
can never deliver.
If we had our way we would not be in the valley, but here we are.
The place where are sons use to be is now an ache that is bone deep.
We will not recover or get back to normal, but we will go ahead to the future,
which is yet to be discovered.
We move in that direction the best we can.
There will be good days, because we remember all the joy our sons
brought to our lives. We know they would want us to have joy and peace.
Trisha
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Maggie,
I am thinking of you, and wishing you comfort for your heart.
I believe that love transcends any boundary.
Yours for him and his for you-
Prayers for you, dear Mama. Jason was blessed to have you.
big hug
chicory
I am thinking of you, and wishing you comfort for your heart.
I believe that love transcends any boundary.
Yours for him and his for you-
Prayers for you, dear Mama. Jason was blessed to have you.
big hug
chicory
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