Today was marked in my diary...
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Today was marked in my diary...
Way back at the beginning I marked off some days that I thought would have some significance - today is one of them as it is 9 months since I have had alcohol.
I wish I could say that after the initial detox I grabbed life with both hands and went storming on to a far superior way of living where alcohol has been forgotten and is now nothing but a bad memory. It has been a real struggle - not all the time, in fact for the majority of the time dare I say it, it has been quite easy(?)
But...on 6 or 7 seperate occasions I have been minutes away from giving in and drinking again. And at those times, given my own way I possibly would have drunk again were it not for my wife (who supports my sobriety 100%) and my higher power.
Of course I am powerless over alcohol so this should not be a surprise, but I would have liked to say "well done" to myself, instead I find myself being grateful and relieved that the final decision was taken away from me.
So while I am happy at this milestone being passed, I take nothing for granted, and am as wary as ever of Mr Alcohol sneaking back into my life.
But, just a day at a time I think I can keep it going - and that feels very good.
Thanks for all you folks being here! I am not a big poster but I come on every day to read and add some comments where I can. Nice one SR, don't think I would be here without you.
Stu.
I wish I could say that after the initial detox I grabbed life with both hands and went storming on to a far superior way of living where alcohol has been forgotten and is now nothing but a bad memory. It has been a real struggle - not all the time, in fact for the majority of the time dare I say it, it has been quite easy(?)
But...on 6 or 7 seperate occasions I have been minutes away from giving in and drinking again. And at those times, given my own way I possibly would have drunk again were it not for my wife (who supports my sobriety 100%) and my higher power.
Of course I am powerless over alcohol so this should not be a surprise, but I would have liked to say "well done" to myself, instead I find myself being grateful and relieved that the final decision was taken away from me.
So while I am happy at this milestone being passed, I take nothing for granted, and am as wary as ever of Mr Alcohol sneaking back into my life.
But, just a day at a time I think I can keep it going - and that feels very good.
Thanks for all you folks being here! I am not a big poster but I come on every day to read and add some comments where I can. Nice one SR, don't think I would be here without you.
Stu.
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Hey Chopper, Thanks for that great post...9 mons Awesome..Hoping to emulate the fine Example set by you, and many others here, without the inspiration of so many here, would be a hard solitary battle, well done..
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Way to go, Chopper! I've had struggles myself and can relate to your post. It has gotten a bit easier as time goes on, but you're right about not taking anything for granted. I hope you give yourself a big pat on the back!!
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