Got my 30 day chip today!
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Got my 30 day chip today!
Well, technically yesterday as it's 4am.
I'm not sure if I'm exactly "proud" but it does feel really really good. I haven't really achieved much for a long while and this is a big achievement for me.
I have been an alcoholic for probably 18 years and this is my joint third-longest period of sobriety in all that time.
The sense of achievement and trying to put things right feels good but the rest of it is still a big struggle. I've been going to meetings, seeing a therapist and even redecorating my entire place as a distraction technique. It's nice having so many more hours in the day but it's hard to fill them all. This early on just 15 minutes without anything to do leads me to seriously thinking about drinking. I suppose that's why I'm on here at 4am!
I'm not sure if I'm exactly "proud" but it does feel really really good. I haven't really achieved much for a long while and this is a big achievement for me.
I have been an alcoholic for probably 18 years and this is my joint third-longest period of sobriety in all that time.
The sense of achievement and trying to put things right feels good but the rest of it is still a big struggle. I've been going to meetings, seeing a therapist and even redecorating my entire place as a distraction technique. It's nice having so many more hours in the day but it's hard to fill them all. This early on just 15 minutes without anything to do leads me to seriously thinking about drinking. I suppose that's why I'm on here at 4am!
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Congratulations on 30 days!!! That is an accomplishment.
I really appreciated your honesty about still having urges, because at 29 days myself- yeah it's difficult. But worth it.
I love the idea of redecorating. What a great idea!
I really appreciated your honesty about still having urges, because at 29 days myself- yeah it's difficult. But worth it.
I love the idea of redecorating. What a great idea!
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Cool deal HarryB.
I wasn't "proud" either. Long list of circumstances for me but it even took a while before I learned the humility to be truly grateful for my sobriety. I took it for granted a lot at first. hmmmm, doesn't it say somewhere that selfishness and self-centeredness is the our problem?
You keep pushing....keep digging.....and keep searching and you'll keep that time, and MORE will come....but make sure you're going forward. We alcoholics have 2 gears, forward and reverse and "standing still" isn't really an option.
I wasn't "proud" either. Long list of circumstances for me but it even took a while before I learned the humility to be truly grateful for my sobriety. I took it for granted a lot at first. hmmmm, doesn't it say somewhere that selfishness and self-centeredness is the our problem?
You keep pushing....keep digging.....and keep searching and you'll keep that time, and MORE will come....but make sure you're going forward. We alcoholics have 2 gears, forward and reverse and "standing still" isn't really an option.
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