Three weeks tomorrow!
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Three weeks tomorrow!
So, today started in the usual manner. I woke up with a mild panic, thinking "oh lord, how much did i drink last night?"
And then I remembered that I have been sober for almost three weeks. My method has been Antabuse, which turns out to be a simple algorithm: just take the damn pill every morning and try not to think about the consequences.
Some things I've noticed so far:
-- Some things I used to do while drinking are quite boring. Parties are just weird; drunk people seem a bit creepy when you're sober.
-- My girlfriend smells like a bucket of acetone after just two glasses of wine. ("Yeah", she replied when I mentioned this, "so how do you think you used to smell after a bottle of Johnny Walker?")
-- Emotions (longing, yearning, sorrow, etc) well up inside me whenever I see a whiskey commercial on TV. But this seems to be getting better, slowly. In fact, the process seems very similar to getting over being an abruptly ended relationship to a loved one.
-- I am about 160% more productive at work.
-- I sleep better. (I took sleeping pills the first two weeks -- the non-habit forming kind -- but I've quit those now.)
-- I can relax a bit more in the company of others now that the worst burden of shame has been lifted.
-- I get affected when bad things happen around me. A 27-year old woman was randomly murdered in my city on sunday, and I find that I cannot stop thinking about her and her family. It's a new flavour of sadness and melancholy, but a calmer one, with no stress, panic or anxiety.
And then I remembered that I have been sober for almost three weeks. My method has been Antabuse, which turns out to be a simple algorithm: just take the damn pill every morning and try not to think about the consequences.
Some things I've noticed so far:
-- Some things I used to do while drinking are quite boring. Parties are just weird; drunk people seem a bit creepy when you're sober.
-- My girlfriend smells like a bucket of acetone after just two glasses of wine. ("Yeah", she replied when I mentioned this, "so how do you think you used to smell after a bottle of Johnny Walker?")
-- Emotions (longing, yearning, sorrow, etc) well up inside me whenever I see a whiskey commercial on TV. But this seems to be getting better, slowly. In fact, the process seems very similar to getting over being an abruptly ended relationship to a loved one.
-- I am about 160% more productive at work.
-- I sleep better. (I took sleeping pills the first two weeks -- the non-habit forming kind -- but I've quit those now.)
-- I can relax a bit more in the company of others now that the worst burden of shame has been lifted.
-- I get affected when bad things happen around me. A 27-year old woman was randomly murdered in my city on sunday, and I find that I cannot stop thinking about her and her family. It's a new flavour of sadness and melancholy, but a calmer one, with no stress, panic or anxiety.
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Good work!! Its amazing that in sobriety....I can smell an open can of beer....and I know now that all those perfume spritzes and quick gargles and breath mints did nothing to mask the booze that oozed out of me.
Glad those days are over and they are for you. Keep it going!
Glad those days are over and they are for you. Keep it going!
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