Since being sober....
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Since being sober....
Since I've been totally sober, I'm seeing stuff that was dumbed down before with either alcohol, medication, and/or religion. Religion being the further away.
It's an amazing new world. I know it must sound ridiculous but I'm realizing how much I've used all those three to deal and cope with living and place some meaning to life and existence. When you take away the pacifiers, what's left is you and your reality and the truth. No more sedatives, physical or imaginative.
Now, I have no problem with religion as long as people keep it personal and if it helps with daily life, as long as it's not imposed and demanded on others, rock on. The truth is though that religion is used for personal and/or political agenda and IS imposed on others. But I have little trust that even if there was no religion, that people would not find some other means to try and manipulate. So, it's like give one here, take away two over there. Same thing, different means.
The reality is a very "freeing" kind of feeling and very sobering. I feel like I've come full circle right back to where I started many years ago when I moved out of my parents house (age 19) and started my journey, my quest. From being raised in secular family, to becoming a Christian missionary, to becoming agnostic/atheist. I've learned so much and am grateful for it.
I'm 52 now, so it's been a life time of a boat ride.
I feel like I have to re-program my thought process, and that new thought process will produce a feeling/an emotion that I like or dislike and so therefore it's my choice. As it was before "a belief" or "alcohol" or "medication" gave way to my thought process, giving way to feelings. Now I am left to be my own boss. I like that.
It's an amazing new world. I know it must sound ridiculous but I'm realizing how much I've used all those three to deal and cope with living and place some meaning to life and existence. When you take away the pacifiers, what's left is you and your reality and the truth. No more sedatives, physical or imaginative.
Now, I have no problem with religion as long as people keep it personal and if it helps with daily life, as long as it's not imposed and demanded on others, rock on. The truth is though that religion is used for personal and/or political agenda and IS imposed on others. But I have little trust that even if there was no religion, that people would not find some other means to try and manipulate. So, it's like give one here, take away two over there. Same thing, different means.
The reality is a very "freeing" kind of feeling and very sobering. I feel like I've come full circle right back to where I started many years ago when I moved out of my parents house (age 19) and started my journey, my quest. From being raised in secular family, to becoming a Christian missionary, to becoming agnostic/atheist. I've learned so much and am grateful for it.
I'm 52 now, so it's been a life time of a boat ride.
I feel like I have to re-program my thought process, and that new thought process will produce a feeling/an emotion that I like or dislike and so therefore it's my choice. As it was before "a belief" or "alcohol" or "medication" gave way to my thought process, giving way to feelings. Now I am left to be my own boss. I like that.
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