hotshot

Had my first free weekend after going back to work. Sometimes that is a trigger for me. I was off work for over a year and it did trigger me to relapse with too much free time.......I was lucky enough to have almost 2 months of sobriety before I started the new job. I am not sure if I really woulda been ready without that 2 months because of How bad I was before I quit. It really does take your mind and body over a month or sometimes longer to come back. I mean I coulda been functional but just barely . My true self probably had only been back for a couple weeks. Very scary because I was not sure it would come back cause sometimes it does not. That might be why I feel strong about stayin sober cause for the very first time I do believe I could die from drinkin......Physically die. I always thought I was immortal and for a while that seemed true because of all the punishment I did on my body through drinking the excessive amounts I did. I always recovered.........But.......There was a mortality to this recovery which I am very gratefull.............Too Bad That Immortal thing would been pretty cool........Wow.......and all I wanted to say when I came on is that I did not drink on my first days off......oh well......mustta needed to vent..........Have a good sober day guys and gals

lildawg

I know what you mean. I know for sure I could die from drinking. It is one thing that keeps me sober. I think you're doing great. Keep on not drinking.

Ghostly

Nice job hotshot...hang in there.

Dee74

I remember when I realised I wasn't immortal too - funny to think now, but it really did shock me.

Good work, hotshot

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CarolD

Forward is the correct way to go......

coffeenut

And here's to another sober day. Make it a good one!

ozgoddess

nice work

stephnc

Congrats on getting through the weekend - and happy sober day again!