Please. Help Me.
Administrator
Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: Australia
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Hi ARB
You've found a great forum - you'll find a lot of help and support here.
I'm an alcoholic, but no matter what your addiction, we've all been there.
Reaching out is a great first step.
I hope to hear more of your story so we can help some more
D
You've found a great forum - you'll find a lot of help and support here.
I'm an alcoholic, but no matter what your addiction, we've all been there.
Reaching out is a great first step.
I hope to hear more of your story so we can help some more
D
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Join Date: Mar 2008
Location: SF Bay area, CA
Posts: 99,759
Welcome to our recovery family! I'm glad you found us. We have many different forums here for many different subjects. I hope we can help you as much as this site has helped me to stay sober.
I'm glad you found us. We have many different forums here for many different subjects. I hope we can help you as much as this site has helped me to stay sober. 
SR Fan
Join Date: Apr 2010
Location: Mississippi
Posts: 7,910
ARB - we've all been where you are, feeling scared and not being able to stop. That's the nature of addiction and the only way to get clean and sober is to get a lot of support. You're taking the first step, which is admitting you have a problem and reaching out for help. Keep posting and read the other threads here. You can do this!:ghug3
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Join Date: Jun 2010
Location: Massachusetts
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ARB: Welcome! Try not to be too scared! It's quite normal to feel that way. Most or maybe all of us have felt scared. You have found a wonderful group of friends who have been through what you are going through and who can help you. Please do send messages to us at any time. Every good wish.
W.
W.
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Join Date: Sep 2007
Location: Atlanta
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(((ARB))) - welcome to SR!!
A lot of us have been where you are. It helped me, when I first found SR, to read a LOT of other posts and realize I wasn't so alone. Keep reaching out and reading, you're among friends
Hugs and prayers,
Amy
A lot of us have been where you are. It helped me, when I first found SR, to read a LOT of other posts and realize I wasn't so alone. Keep reaching out and reading, you're among friends
Hugs and prayers,
Amy
Member
Join Date: Aug 2010
Posts: 207
ARB - Hi and welcome. You have found a place where people share and care and typically you can find people up on forum at all times. We have all gone though what you are going through - in some form or another. You will identify with many things so don't feel all alone. Speaking-up on the forum is a great big step for you and one that is a most impt. step.
I joined only about 2 weeks ago (2 weeks sober) and many here reached out and have been following me. People gave me strength (although I felt weak and am very very early into this so not much under my belt. But I am looking to do things different this time so I can sustain sobrity. Big was people making me feel not as afraid to try an AA meeting - something I would never ever have done. First meeting is a brave big step but then the fear of the unknown is take away.
People on this forum will be here for you.
I joined only about 2 weeks ago (2 weeks sober) and many here reached out and have been following me. People gave me strength (although I felt weak and am very very early into this so not much under my belt. But I am looking to do things different this time so I can sustain sobrity. Big was people making me feel not as afraid to try an AA meeting - something I would never ever have done. First meeting is a brave big step but then the fear of the unknown is take away.
People on this forum will be here for you.
Grateful Member
Join Date: Aug 2010
Location: MI
Posts: 1,080
Hi ARB. Welcome to our wonderful recovery family. Its very understandable for you to be scared. We've all been there. This forum is unlike any other in terms of support, and experience. Please give us more of your story!
A work in progress
Join Date: Jul 2010
Location: South Jersey
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Hey, ARB,
We've all been where you are, and we were all scared. Heck, if we weren't scared to death, most of us wouldn't be looking for another way to live.
Tell us more about yourself once you're done "GAAAHHH"ing.
We've all been where you are, and we were all scared. Heck, if we weren't scared to death, most of us wouldn't be looking for another way to live.
Tell us more about yourself once you're done "GAAAHHH"ing.
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Join Date: Aug 2007
Location: Upstate New York
Posts: 51,526
Hi ARB - we're so glad you are here. For what it's worth, I also knew for a long time that I needed to stop & was afraid I couldn't. I did it, though - by coming here & reading & learning about our disease. There were so many people just like me - I was no longer alone, and that's what made all the difference.
As the others have said, explore the site and reach out - we are here to help and listen. We all understand and share what you're going through. You can get well and have a whole new life - no more being a prisoner.
As the others have said, explore the site and reach out - we are here to help and listen. We all understand and share what you're going through. You can get well and have a whole new life - no more being a prisoner.
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Thread Starter
Join Date: Sep 2010
Posts: 184
Wow. Thanks to everyone who replied.
Not as close to tears because I have three White Russians and a bottle of wine down my pathetic gullet. Spent a few hours after work reading Green Tea's sticky posts.... and joined, because her posts were Me.
Never understood the term "disease" until tonight. This understanding scared the crap out of me.
My entire family are/were alcoholics.
Golly. What have I done?????
Not as close to tears because I have three White Russians and a bottle of wine down my pathetic gullet. Spent a few hours after work reading Green Tea's sticky posts.... and joined, because her posts were Me.
Never understood the term "disease" until tonight. This understanding scared the crap out of me.
My entire family are/were alcoholics.
Golly. What have I done?????
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Thread Starter
Join Date: Sep 2010
Posts: 184
Okay, two seconds after I posted, I'm near tears.
I have NEVER not been able to stop. It started in March. It started in March 2009.....
I can no longer stop.
I am like a SIM's thought bubble.... ALCOHOL.
I am Highly Functional... but numb and in a daze.
I no longer see Purpose to Life, except for my children.
I have ostrasized myself from everybody.
My best friend is now my next drink.
When/How/Why did this happen???????
I have NEVER not been able to stop. It started in March. It started in March 2009.....
I can no longer stop.
I am like a SIM's thought bubble.... ALCOHOL.
I am Highly Functional... but numb and in a daze.
I no longer see Purpose to Life, except for my children.
I have ostrasized myself from everybody.
My best friend is now my next drink.
When/How/Why did this happen???????
Last edited by LSNP; 09-02-2010 at 08:24 PM. Reason: Screwed up the Year......
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Join Date: Jul 2010
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You don't sound so terribly functional to me.
You sound scared and desperate, the way I did when I got sober.
Right now, it really doesn't matter how and why it happened--you have plenty of time to analyze that someday.
You need to stop drinking, but that can be dangerous without some medical help. Can you take a few days and check into a detox?
You sound scared and desperate, the way I did when I got sober.
Right now, it really doesn't matter how and why it happened--you have plenty of time to analyze that someday.
You need to stop drinking, but that can be dangerous without some medical help. Can you take a few days and check into a detox?
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Join Date: Sep 2010
Posts: 184
Detox? No. That's never going to happen.
Can I quit without physical repercussions? I'm pretty sure I can.
Kids aren't home tonight or I wouldn't have so much in me. aka FUNCTIONAL
LOL
You're right. I'm not functional. I am scared and getting desperate, though not quite there yet.
I hold a highly demanding job. I always cook square meals for my kids. I own my home. I have no debt aside from my mortgage.... I guess that's what I mean by "functional."
My social life is nonexistent. :-(
Can I quit without physical repercussions? I'm pretty sure I can.
Kids aren't home tonight or I wouldn't have so much in me. aka FUNCTIONAL
LOL
You're right. I'm not functional. I am scared and getting desperate, though not quite there yet.
I hold a highly demanding job. I always cook square meals for my kids. I own my home. I have no debt aside from my mortgage.... I guess that's what I mean by "functional."
My social life is nonexistent. :-(
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Join Date: Apr 2010
Location: Up, Up and Away
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Originally Posted by ARB 
Never understood the term "disease" until tonight. This understanding scared the crap out of me.
My entire family are/were alcoholics.
Golly. What have I done?????
So try not to get down on yourself. Figure out a treatment plan and follow it. There is plenty of info here, so keep reading.
Best wishes.
Administrator
Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: Australia
Posts: 211,373
Hey Arb
I think most of us had that 'Wow!' moment when the scales fell from our eyes. It's like being punched in the gut everytime you think of it, I know.
The thing is, this place is full of folks who've been there, done that, and gotten out
The most important thing now for you to do is stop drinking - don't worry about the past or the future - there's time enough for all that.
Focus on the one task - and try to focus on it one day at a time for now.
I encourage you to see a Dr. - Detox can sometimes be tricky, for a start - and secondly your doctor may be able to advise you in ways we can't here.
I also encourage you to at least think about possible face to face support groups as well. SR is great but I think whatever support we can get is always welcome.
The day I quit was the worst day in many ways - but it was also the best
I'm not rich or famous or successful, but I have the kind of life and happiness now I could only dream of back when I was drinking.
It's good to have you with us, ARB
D
I think most of us had that 'Wow!' moment when the scales fell from our eyes. It's like being punched in the gut everytime you think of it, I know.
The thing is, this place is full of folks who've been there, done that, and gotten out
The most important thing now for you to do is stop drinking - don't worry about the past or the future - there's time enough for all that.
Focus on the one task - and try to focus on it one day at a time for now.
I encourage you to see a Dr. - Detox can sometimes be tricky, for a start - and secondly your doctor may be able to advise you in ways we can't here.
I also encourage you to at least think about possible face to face support groups as well. SR is great but I think whatever support we can get is always welcome.
The day I quit was the worst day in many ways - but it was also the best
I'm not rich or famous or successful, but I have the kind of life and happiness now I could only dream of back when I was drinking.
It's good to have you with us, ARB
D
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Thread Starter
Join Date: Sep 2010
Posts: 184
Thanks to Everyone. Really. I just don't know what to say.......
I will be back tomorrow.
Quit date? Tuesday? I guess I am not quite there yet......
I don't know if I can do this, anymore... and yet I absolutely do NOT want to hit a rock bottom state, which is exactly where I am heading.
F, MotherF. HOW DID THIS HAPPEN?????????? I used to always be like, "Huh? You can't stop after a couple? WTF? Serious?"
...and now it's me.
WTF happened??????
I will be back tomorrow.
Quit date? Tuesday? I guess I am not quite there yet......
I don't know if I can do this, anymore... and yet I absolutely do NOT want to hit a rock bottom state, which is exactly where I am heading.
F, MotherF. HOW DID THIS HAPPEN?????????? I used to always be like, "Huh? You can't stop after a couple? WTF? Serious?"
...and now it's me.
WTF happened??????
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