trixieisme

That's what I did this morning. I dumped out what was left from last night. I know, I should have done it yesterday, and not continued to drink. But, knowing what is right doesn't mean that I always do what is right.

Im the midst of my drinking last night, I told my friend that I was so mad and hurt about the changes in our friendship, and that was why I was drinking. That wasn't fair of me. I can't try to put the blame on someone else just because I don't want to take responsibility. But, my friend understood. Said that I was justified in feeling that way, and if this was the only way that I knew to deal with pain, then they wouldn't stand in my way.

So now we are at today. I was four hours late to work, but my boss didn't care. Perhaps if I knew that there would have been reprocussions, I would have been here on time, feeling crappy. But instead, I stayed in bed and slept it off.

LaFemme

I'm glad you poured it out...better late than never...use the sober time you had before to help you get back on track:-)

Anna

That was a good decision, Trixie.

And, it's good that you see that it's not your friend's fault. It was really hard for me to accept that I was responsible for myself, but it's a necessity for recovery.

julez

Great that you poured it out. I hope you were able to learn something this time that will prevent you from picking up next time. You can get right back on that horse Trix!!

trixieisme

My roommate said that he is going to mark today on the calender. He said he never thought that he would see the day I would pour out alcohol. It was kinda funny, actually. He came into the kitchen and saw me, and walked away, like maybe he thought I wanted to be alone while I was doing it...but then he came back into the kitchen and just stood there and watched me, like he was mesmerized or something. He said that he was really proud of me, which made me feel good.

Mel8899

Great job Trixie! I have had several stops and starts and learned from each one. Keep working at it, it will stick eventually. The only way it will not work is if you quit trying.

LexieCat

Good job dumping the rest of the booze.

Now get to a meeting!!!! And call your sponsor, if you haven't, yet.

CarolD

I really hope this will be your final round for
drinking alcohol...
Drinking just harms everyone in so many ways.

For instance....jobs usually depend on performing
whatever duties they require.
Best done when you are sober and on time.

lildawg

Good job! Your strength put a lump in my throat. What you did is so hard. I'm proud of you.