Something positive...and it came from a negative
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Something positive...and it came from a negative
Hello SR...
I like to post positive things. Well actually this is a miracle for me. LOL.
The road I take home from work is under terrible construction and after a few weeks of sitting in bumper and bumper traffic I decided to take the alternate route, which happens to run past my stxah's job. Can I just tell you what a trigger this was for me???? I didnt see him nor would I and his building is way down the street but it made me realize why NC is sooooo important. I have been NC for 3 months..I just celebrated it..I need my 3 month chip please Needless to say I sit in traffic now and dont care because its better than facing triggers every day.
I was getting so stressed over this and the anxiety was getting to me. Now I am the type of person that HATES to work out. I used to force myself and never could keep it up. I thought I had no stamina nor endurance. Well one night I got on my treadmill and I put my ipod on and just started running. I was so shocked. I loved it. I now run 3.5 miles almost every night and I NEVER thought I could run for more than a minute. I now look forward to this every night. I feel like this new person is emerging. I did something I didnt think I could. Something positive for me. And something that challenges me. I have this whole person inside of me that I had no idea about. If I was still with my stxah I would never have realized I like to run because I would be busy taking care of HIS issues.
I never thought I could...but I DID!!!!
Hugs
Lulu
I like to post positive things. Well actually this is a miracle for me. LOL.
The road I take home from work is under terrible construction and after a few weeks of sitting in bumper and bumper traffic I decided to take the alternate route, which happens to run past my stxah's job. Can I just tell you what a trigger this was for me???? I didnt see him nor would I and his building is way down the street but it made me realize why NC is sooooo important. I have been NC for 3 months..I just celebrated it..I need my 3 month chip please Needless to say I sit in traffic now and dont care because its better than facing triggers every day.
I was getting so stressed over this and the anxiety was getting to me. Now I am the type of person that HATES to work out. I used to force myself and never could keep it up. I thought I had no stamina nor endurance. Well one night I got on my treadmill and I put my ipod on and just started running. I was so shocked. I loved it. I now run 3.5 miles almost every night and I NEVER thought I could run for more than a minute. I now look forward to this every night. I feel like this new person is emerging. I did something I didnt think I could. Something positive for me. And something that challenges me. I have this whole person inside of me that I had no idea about. If I was still with my stxah I would never have realized I like to run because I would be busy taking care of HIS issues.
I never thought I could...but I DID!!!!
Hugs
Lulu
Wow...to go from hating working out to 3.5 miles a day...that is huge! Congratulations on that and your 3 mo NC, and your choices to take care of you. I understand triggers! What a nasty, painful tailspin they can create. Good for you for taking care of Lulu!
Congratulations on your three months of NC and on finding a healthy outlook. I love my treadmill for the very same reason. It's an outlet. It's a way I can get away from it all without leaving the safety of home. I try new music. I try new workouts....Every tried walking fast backwards...now that's a workout for the body and mind, seems simple, but it will kick your behind.
So proud of your process and progress in recovery!! Bravo!!
Alice
So proud of your process and progress in recovery!! Bravo!!
Alice
"I NEVER thought I could run for more than a minute. I now look forward to this every night. I feel like this new person is emerging. I did something I didnt think I could."
Sounds like you're FLYING too!
Sounds like you're FLYING too!
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