a thought about trust
a thought about trust
I was listening to GMA just now and heard Elin Woods' quote about the ending of marriage...."without trust and love what is the point?"
Trust sure is difficult to rebuild once it has been broken. And even then, the fact that it ever was broken never goes away. When you know what a person is capable of do you ever really lower your guard with them again? And with those walls up is the relationship able to be what I truly want?
I honestly don't sit around and worry about whether my husband will cheat on me or go out and use. Part of the reason that I don't is because I have done a lot of work on myself and now trust that no matter what he should do or not do that I will be fine. That awareness has helped defuse a whole lot of the worry.
But......there is also the awareness that my guard (boundaries?) is really up around him on some level. That probably has a lot to do with the awareness of the cunning nature of addiction and all that any addict has is "today".
Maybe it's not that I don't trust the addict.....it's actually that I know not to trust the disease.
Trust sure is difficult to rebuild once it has been broken. And even then, the fact that it ever was broken never goes away. When you know what a person is capable of do you ever really lower your guard with them again? And with those walls up is the relationship able to be what I truly want?
I honestly don't sit around and worry about whether my husband will cheat on me or go out and use. Part of the reason that I don't is because I have done a lot of work on myself and now trust that no matter what he should do or not do that I will be fine. That awareness has helped defuse a whole lot of the worry.
But......there is also the awareness that my guard (boundaries?) is really up around him on some level. That probably has a lot to do with the awareness of the cunning nature of addiction and all that any addict has is "today".
Maybe it's not that I don't trust the addict.....it's actually that I know not to trust the disease.
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Trust is very important. When I found out that the addict guy I was romantically involved with was going on dating sites behind my back, it finally hit me that there is no trust. I do not trust him. That has really helped me to keep pushing forward in my own life.
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I honestly don't sit around and worry about whether my husband will cheat on me or go out and use. Part of the reason that I don't is because I have done a lot of work on myself and now trust that no matter what he should do or not do that I will be fine. That awareness has helped defuse a whole lot of the worry.
Good thoughts here, lightseeker, and I agree that the disease steals any trust we may have.
Trust takes a long time to rebuild, and it has nothing to do with forgiveness. It is a deep wound that takes time to heal, and a wound that many relationships cannot survive.
Hugs to all you who have struggled with trusting a partner.
Trust takes a long time to rebuild, and it has nothing to do with forgiveness. It is a deep wound that takes time to heal, and a wound that many relationships cannot survive.
Hugs to all you who have struggled with trusting a partner.
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