Daily Suit of Armour...
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Daily Suit of Armour...
Just got back from Town and doing a bit of shopping. Bought a couple of new albums that I wanted, bit of food shopping and clothes shopping.
As I was walking round town then I couldn't help but smile to myself. I was thinking how great it is that I have a daily reprieve from my alcoholism. Like I feel so strong because I know that. Also I cannot help but feel happy that I feel much more comfortable in my skin when out and about. It is something that I have had to work on and continue to strive for. My problems were all in my own head. It's great to feel like I ain't carrying a millstone around my neck anymore. I carried that for years and it nearly killed me.
I guess I am just feeling happy. It's a feeling that I could never really notice before as I always used to think of happy as being high off booze and drugs. Or if I was feeling good then I would not accept it for what it was as I would always want to increase it by getting hammered.
I am finding with much of my recovery now that it feels like a big weight is gently being removed off my shoulders 'one day as a time'. Obviously some days aren't as good as others but I accept them and do the work I need to do to get back feeling in 'balance'.
This is just a message of hope really. It is a process which cannot be rushed, certainly with my situation anyway. It is a healing process which takes as long as it takes. I am just enjoying my day off and I really love SR and often hold little gems of wisdom that I pick up from here as I am going about my day.
I guess it's also great being in the supermarket and not caring that the alcohol is literally stacked to the ceiling with cheap deals. When I see them then I just immediately think... 'Not for this alcoholic'.
Peace.
As I was walking round town then I couldn't help but smile to myself. I was thinking how great it is that I have a daily reprieve from my alcoholism. Like I feel so strong because I know that. Also I cannot help but feel happy that I feel much more comfortable in my skin when out and about. It is something that I have had to work on and continue to strive for. My problems were all in my own head. It's great to feel like I ain't carrying a millstone around my neck anymore. I carried that for years and it nearly killed me.
I guess I am just feeling happy. It's a feeling that I could never really notice before as I always used to think of happy as being high off booze and drugs. Or if I was feeling good then I would not accept it for what it was as I would always want to increase it by getting hammered.
I am finding with much of my recovery now that it feels like a big weight is gently being removed off my shoulders 'one day as a time'. Obviously some days aren't as good as others but I accept them and do the work I need to do to get back feeling in 'balance'.
This is just a message of hope really. It is a process which cannot be rushed, certainly with my situation anyway. It is a healing process which takes as long as it takes. I am just enjoying my day off and I really love SR and often hold little gems of wisdom that I pick up from here as I am going about my day.
I guess it's also great being in the supermarket and not caring that the alcohol is literally stacked to the ceiling with cheap deals. When I see them then I just immediately think... 'Not for this alcoholic'.
Peace.
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great post amigo....
you know how i feel on this issue.
had the same mini-epiphany that i have daily last night.
i had left baseball practice.....got on the interstate with the windows down....music blasting and a gorgeous sunset to my left and all i could think was 'i am a happy, happy man right now'
you know how i feel on this issue.
had the same mini-epiphany that i have daily last night.
i had left baseball practice.....got on the interstate with the windows down....music blasting and a gorgeous sunset to my left and all i could think was 'i am a happy, happy man right now'
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Thanks for that post man, I have the same feeling now. Its been awesome to finally discover that I really am happy. I notice it at so many different times to. It can be when I am doing something simple like looking at the scenery while sitting a table in the city or driving through the country. I get it when I walk into meetings at work now and smile and talk to people rather than grumble about all the negative things I used to have on my mind.
I feel a lot more confident, but really more stable too. Just level and calm. My closest freinds have told me they are getting to know me all over again, and that I finally seem at peace with myself, and the world too.
I also can understand what your saying when seeing alcohol in the stores. I look at it now and say nah, not for me anymore. There was a day early in my sobriety where it scared the heck out of me. Now, I have the tools to look past it.
Sobriety is an awesomething! And, it keeps on getting better. The best part is continuing to realize that every day.
I feel a lot more confident, but really more stable too. Just level and calm. My closest freinds have told me they are getting to know me all over again, and that I finally seem at peace with myself, and the world too.
I also can understand what your saying when seeing alcohol in the stores. I look at it now and say nah, not for me anymore. There was a day early in my sobriety where it scared the heck out of me. Now, I have the tools to look past it.
Sobriety is an awesomething! And, it keeps on getting better. The best part is continuing to realize that every day.
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Great post, NEO, as usual! I don't think we have any clue when we're drinking just how much living we missed out on everyday. It's the little things, too, just like everyone said: driving down the highway seeing a sunset, talking to your daughter, or spending a little of that (formerly used for alcohol) cash on a new album and some food.
Here's to sobriety!
Here's to sobriety!
This totally rocked my attitude today. Thanks for the good stuff!
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Originally Posted by NEOMARXIST 
Just got back from Town and doing a bit of shopping. Bought a couple of new albums that I wanted, bit of food shopping and clothes shopping.
As I was walking round town then I couldn't help but smile to myself. I was thinking how great it is that I have a daily reprieve from my alcoholism. Like I feel so strong because I know that. Also I cannot help but feel happy that I feel much more comfortable in my skin when out and about. It is something that I have had to work on and continue to strive for. My problems were all in my own head. It's great to feel like I ain't carrying a millstone around my neck anymore. I carried that for years and it nearly killed me.
I guess I am just feeling happy. It's a feeling that I could never really notice before as I always used to think of happy as being high off booze and drugs. Or if I was feeling good then I would not accept it for what it was as I would always want to increase it by getting hammered.
I am finding with much of my recovery now that it feels like a big weight is gently being removed off my shoulders 'one day as a time'. Obviously some days aren't as good as others but I accept them and do the work I need to do to get back feeling in 'balance'.
This is just a message of hope really. It is a process which cannot be rushed, certainly with my situation anyway. It is a healing process which takes as long as it takes. I am just enjoying my day off and I really love SR and often hold little gems of wisdom that I pick up from here as I am going about my day.
I guess it's also great being in the supermarket and not caring that the alcohol is literally stacked to the ceiling with cheap deals. When I see them then I just immediately think... 'Not for this alcoholic'.
Peace.
As I was walking round town then I couldn't help but smile to myself. I was thinking how great it is that I have a daily reprieve from my alcoholism. Like I feel so strong because I know that. Also I cannot help but feel happy that I feel much more comfortable in my skin when out and about. It is something that I have had to work on and continue to strive for. My problems were all in my own head. It's great to feel like I ain't carrying a millstone around my neck anymore. I carried that for years and it nearly killed me.
I guess I am just feeling happy. It's a feeling that I could never really notice before as I always used to think of happy as being high off booze and drugs. Or if I was feeling good then I would not accept it for what it was as I would always want to increase it by getting hammered.
I am finding with much of my recovery now that it feels like a big weight is gently being removed off my shoulders 'one day as a time'. Obviously some days aren't as good as others but I accept them and do the work I need to do to get back feeling in 'balance'.
This is just a message of hope really. It is a process which cannot be rushed, certainly with my situation anyway. It is a healing process which takes as long as it takes. I am just enjoying my day off and I really love SR and often hold little gems of wisdom that I pick up from here as I am going about my day.
I guess it's also great being in the supermarket and not caring that the alcohol is literally stacked to the ceiling with cheap deals. When I see them then I just immediately think... 'Not for this alcoholic'.
Peace.
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