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There is a thread in the A's section "I will not drink or drug today because....insert your reason"

Now these people are doing a great work at this.

I read it one night when I couldn't sleep. I saw the title again just a minute ago.
My mind flipped it to I will drink or drug today because.....(insert your reason).

I personally can't come up with the scenario where it would make me feel better today.
Then I am trying to remember all the reasons I was given and actually tried to ponder and understand~because I know the XABF that I had my head up my butt over.....and that I tried to make sense of and believe.

I think the one that struck me with astonishment near the beginning of the relationship was:
"Friends stopped over and had this bottle of xyz and I (looking sheepishly at me) drank a bunch real fast so it would be gone and they would leave before you got here. I am sorry."

I am grateful that today I can laugh about it.

lulu1974

wow. love the way they can turn it around and claim they did it to benefit you!!!

ninja7

It would make me feel better any more today.

At first I used drinking for control my emotion, at last drinking had controlled and kill my emotion. I am grateful that today I can laugh about it too.

Freedom1990

And that, my dear, is the beauty of recovery!

There are a lot of things in the past I won't ever be able to laugh about, but there's a whole lot more that I can smile and laugh about.

It's no fun living in emotional pain 24/7!

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Honestly the absurdity of so much of it is rather hilarious to me now!

And I am laughing at BOTH of us....now that it is all laid to rest.
We were NUTS!