blackstrat6

Well I drank some beer the other day... I was a little over 5 months and gave it up for what I knew. Why? because I'm an alcoholic. I didn't drink because i had something bad happening, I didn't drink because I was in the wrong place or around the wrong people. I drank because I chose to and that's the most insane yet at the same time sane thing about it.

Dee74

I'm sorry blackstrat. Glad you're back tho

Yeah, I'm never sure 'because I'm an alcoholic' is a valid reason.
There are alcoholics here at SR who haven't drunk since I was in high school, y'know?

You can do it - we all can - but it really pays to always remember how relentless our condition is.

D

Balou

Think of all the days you put in, one day in 5 months is a step up from the past. Remember now we have the same start date, it helps me when I have other people on the same day as me.

Every waking moment is a chance to turn it all around.

Peter G

Don't beat yourself up over it, it is what it is. I came as close as ever just yesterday myself. Thankfully I stopped only after looking at the bottle at the store and saying "maybe later", but it was SO close.

You know slips and relapses can happen, and you know what's necessary to fight back. Glad that you're back here bro.

SparklingSeven

Thanks for sharing and well done in coming right back. It just shows that you always have to be on your guard no matter how long you have been sober. I have done similar things on a number of occassions and still managed to get back on track.

Don't be too hard on yourself but do learn from this. Wishing you well and sending you all the positive sober vibes I can muster.

Hang in there.

Stu.

Starburst

Hi, just remember how good the last 5 months were, you can get back on top again.

endzoner

:ghug3 i still love ya ....

aasharon90

It's sad how being sober
screws up our drinking
careers. Having just a
taste of sobriety takes
all the joy i thought i
had out of drinking.

And mind you I loved
drinking my beautiful
glass of chilled dark
red wine on a daily
bases.

Today with a few
many one days at a
time collected to get
me where I am today,
those beautiful glasses
of wine turned into
POISON.

It's always a joy to see
those return back to
a program of recovery
because it allows me
to see and hear how
alcohol is still alive
and well and kicking
butt big time.

Inching towards 20yrs
sober and I still see
how alcohol is continue-
ing to destroy those
in its path.

least

I'm sorry that you drank but glad you're back starting over again.

Snarf

Welcome back blackstrat. No matter where you go or how long you're there, this site and many of the people on it will still be here waiting for your return. Thanks for coming back and sharing. I think each one of us can defeat this affliction, but not one of us can do it alone.

Kerbcrawler

Hey Blackstrat..you me an a lot of others here, have taken a little stumble here, on this great road of gettin a life back, that 5 months under your belt, is hard earned at times, but you know the score in livin sober now,as you got 5 months in the bag as it were, i think an hope like me you realize,once you taste the good life of sobriety...the old way of doin things aint cutting it to happiness no more,...sos for the mini sermon here, me am 3months in with the one night blip..so i get ya...good luck,

TexasNative

Hopefully you didn't enjoy it! I was at the store yesterday and the guy in front had a six of Lone Star longnecks, were starting to sweat from being out of the cooler...I was just staring at em in a trance, just dam near went to get my own. So glad I didn't, but it was so close. It happens, don't dwell on it is all I can say.

nacona

Saying "maybe later" or "maybe tomorrow" has worked for me with drinking, drugging and smoking cigarettes. Somehow I trick myself into thinking that it's not REALLY over, because maybe tomorrow she will let us have a drink.....crazy, huh?

Someone once told me to say "thank you for sharing" to that part of my brain that tries to get me to drink, drug or smoke. Now I can add overeat to the list.

bdiddy5522

Since "Smacked" hasn't said it yet, I will. haha. What are you going to do differently this time? (You are welcome Smacked).

It takes tools to overcome our addictions. I hope you find some that work.

thirtybubba

((Strat))

Well... pick self up, dust self off, and hop back on...

justjo

Help someone up the hill, and you'll get to the top yourself."

Your quote blacky. You have helped me laugh and pushed me up the hill (In chat-which I havent done much of lately by the way) So blacky, wanna climb the hill together?

Sneezy

(((Blacky)))

Glad you're back!!!!!

sleepie

Don't negate the 5 months, that's a long time. One day is one day- just refrain from doing it again

Kmber2010

Black....I am glad you posted. Just pick back up friend and go at it again. I had my relapse in April and restarted that little clock and worked all the harder in my recovery. My relapse was the best thing to happen to me in that I learned so much more about myself and came back stronger then ever.

I too didn't really have a reason for picking up but it was rather a subtle drink on vacation. I dismissed sobriety and I thought big deal why not. The mind of an alcoholic telling me it was ok and it was what I wanted. I believed it. If I went close to 3 months then I obviously I can handle the occasional drink. Ummmmm....NO NO NO. I had that one then the next night another and two and before I knew it within a few days I was at that liquor store buying the big handle of rum.

Huggs...you can do this. Come back stronger. Thinking of you!!

CarolD

Many of us had false starts before we finally quit.

Welcome back