mftrader

I was driving home from work thinking it's beer time again. With thirty days under my belt I give my self the ok to buy a pint of beer on the way home. Just one Pint. I know in my mind I am fine with just one and only one. Ok this is the game I've been playing with myself on the way home. Then I let the alcoholic side of me speaking up. "well what heck.....what is one going to do for you? you need more than that" Ha my brain is fighting with itself over how much I can bring home. One ain't going to get the water hot and alocoholic side wants too much. So by the time I let them battle it out and I'm home for the evening. I don't know this must be my delusional way of thinking. But it gets me one day down.

Hope this makes sense.

CarolD

Well done on your 30 days....

Keep doing whatever you find works for you

Lenina

mftrader! Good job on recognizing the Alcoholic Voice! And well done on listening to the sane side!

Love,

Lenina

WhiteWave

Good job! And stay strong! I'm rootin' for ya; can't wait for you to get to 60, 90, a thousand days

Blessed be,
WW

least

Congrats on winning the argument in your head. May you be victorious every time and eventually discover that there are no more arguments going on in your head!

NEOMARXIST

One pint is a total waste of time. 10 pints minimum. Then another 10 pints when waking up for the next day and a bottle of whiskey to get the job done.

Yer I'm an alkie.

Nice one on not getting any booze. Moderation is a fairytale for this alcoholic.

Don't pander to the addict mind and keep working your recovery. Eventually these type of thoughts are non existant. If they ever do crop up you can laugh at them. They really don't have any power anymore.

Peace

JJB

Neo I've followed your posts for a long time and am amazed at your progress (hope that doesn't sound patronizing it really isn't meant to)
Can I ask you if you've really got to the stage where you don't have those thoughts anymore?
I would so like that but don't know if it's ever possible for the alcoholic and thats why I ask.

NEOMARXIST

Thanks JJB. Yes indeed. I haven't had thoughts like those for many 'one day at a times' now. It is great to feel free.

coffeenut

30 days! Get there however you can, friend!

Anna

Good for you for recognizing that the addict voice is there to bring you down, and that you can ignore it!