Day 90 aka 3 months! ;-)
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Day 90 aka 3 months! ;-)
I'm very thrilled, that I've made it this far.
3 months 1/2 ago this was impossible to imagine, I thank SR with all my heart!
To all the new friends here, I want to say, when you read this you might think, "I can't, I won't be able to". That's how I felt when I read posts from people that had some or a lot of sober time under their belt, but I wanted it bad enough and was so tired of the "life" I was enduring, that I decided to give it a big go.
I found this forum because It was time I guess, never found it in my earlier attempts for help. So after some hesitation (shame & ego trying to block me) I decided to join this community, well hang on to it for dear life is more accurate.
I get more things done, I am more patient, I am a better mother, I like being around me, I'm more efficiënt, I like wearing my shades against the sun but not because I'm hungover, I like planning to go somewhere the day after a party cause I know I'll be able to go, I like my improving health, I like my optimism and newfound spirituality...
To gain all this and more a had to let go of 1 thing only...
In a few days I'll be making my last payment on a big fine I was paying off over the last two years because I got in a car accident while I was drunk. The fine was not enough to keep me from drinking & driving even though I was shocked and ashamed when it happened. Of course I vowed never to drive drunk again!
But It took something bigger, not more dramatic to stop me and I found that in SR and my HP. I am happy that now paying those last installments, I AM actually a sober recovering person.
Tnx for reading
3 months 1/2 ago this was impossible to imagine, I thank SR with all my heart!
To all the new friends here, I want to say, when you read this you might think, "I can't, I won't be able to". That's how I felt when I read posts from people that had some or a lot of sober time under their belt, but I wanted it bad enough and was so tired of the "life" I was enduring, that I decided to give it a big go.
I found this forum because It was time I guess, never found it in my earlier attempts for help. So after some hesitation (shame & ego trying to block me) I decided to join this community, well hang on to it for dear life is more accurate.
I get more things done, I am more patient, I am a better mother, I like being around me, I'm more efficiënt, I like wearing my shades against the sun but not because I'm hungover, I like planning to go somewhere the day after a party cause I know I'll be able to go, I like my improving health, I like my optimism and newfound spirituality...
To gain all this and more a had to let go of 1 thing only...
In a few days I'll be making my last payment on a big fine I was paying off over the last two years because I got in a car accident while I was drunk. The fine was not enough to keep me from drinking & driving even though I was shocked and ashamed when it happened. Of course I vowed never to drive drunk again!
But It took something bigger, not more dramatic to stop me and I found that in SR and my HP. I am happy that now paying those last installments, I AM actually a sober recovering person.
Tnx for reading
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Hip Hip Hooray for you Andi! I love that post, I am also a mother. I like you always had to plan things around my drinking and hangovers! Can't wait till I get to 90 days! I know 1 day at a time!
Enjoy your DAY!
XO
Enjoy your DAY!
XO
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There's a lot of positivity in your post-Congrats on 3 months Andi! What you wrote sounds like you are involved in your recovery and have made some very positive changes in your life- and you can enjoy many things a lot more because of you are sober. Ps: Coincidentally, I had the printed version of the same poster as your avatar in my early sobriety and had pinned it next to the door out of my room.
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Congratulations on a BIG BIG milestone, Andi!!!
Your post helps me to stay positive today. I loved the part about being able to plan something the day after a party because you knew you'd be able to go!!! I wonder how many times I avoided planning anything, and how many times I skipped out on the plans I did make.
You strength really comes through (and it's not easy being a mom, either!). Thanks for a great post.
Your post helps me to stay positive today. I loved the part about being able to plan something the day after a party because you knew you'd be able to go!!! I wonder how many times I avoided planning anything, and how many times I skipped out on the plans I did make.You strength really comes through (and it's not easy being a mom, either!). Thanks for a great post.
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