21 Days Today!
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21 Days Today!
What an incredible feeling. I am in awe of how good I feel and how quickly the last three weeks have gone by.
It is nothing short of a miracle that I don't want to drink today. I have come to the realization that if I drink things will only get worse. I will say and do horrible things and end up in jail or dead. That's how serious my alcoholism is. When I drink, I have NO idea how it's going to all turn out. The only thing I know for certain is that I will lose all control and do a lot of regrettable things that I can't take back.
I used to think 'Oh well, it's only me that I'm hurting. I can take it'. I now know that 1) I am hurting so many other people when I drink and 2) I CAN'T take it! I have been treating myself like crap for the last 25 years. I'm my own worst enemy.
As I go through these days not drinking, I'm allowing myself to feel for the first time. Yes, I have anxiety and fear but I don't have to medicate those feelings. When I sit through them, they eventually go away and I emerge with a new perspective.
Today, I choose to face my fears and walk through the fire, sober. That feeling is incredible. I haven't felt this alive since before I started drinking when I was a teenager. I'm full of hope, gratitude and an appreciation for the little things in life.
Thanks for letting me share this and all of your encouragement. This board has helped me so much over the last three weeks.
Have a great sober day,
Steven
It is nothing short of a miracle that I don't want to drink today. I have come to the realization that if I drink things will only get worse. I will say and do horrible things and end up in jail or dead. That's how serious my alcoholism is. When I drink, I have NO idea how it's going to all turn out. The only thing I know for certain is that I will lose all control and do a lot of regrettable things that I can't take back.
I used to think 'Oh well, it's only me that I'm hurting. I can take it'. I now know that 1) I am hurting so many other people when I drink and 2) I CAN'T take it! I have been treating myself like crap for the last 25 years. I'm my own worst enemy.
As I go through these days not drinking, I'm allowing myself to feel for the first time. Yes, I have anxiety and fear but I don't have to medicate those feelings. When I sit through them, they eventually go away and I emerge with a new perspective.
Today, I choose to face my fears and walk through the fire, sober. That feeling is incredible. I haven't felt this alive since before I started drinking when I was a teenager. I'm full of hope, gratitude and an appreciation for the little things in life.
Thanks for letting me share this and all of your encouragement. This board has helped me so much over the last three weeks.
Have a great sober day,
Steven
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Join Date: Apr 2010
Location: Mississippi
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Congratulations on 3 weeks, Steven - that's awesome! I agree that living sober and facing our feelings is a great accomplishment. It's nice to feel good about ourselves again, isn't it? Way to go!
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