2 weeks yet seems so much longer
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2 weeks yet seems so much longer
2 weeks ago I let go of my AH. This isnt the typical NC..i have done that in the past to "set him straight" and teach him a lesson. LOL at myself. To an A nothing really matters. I truly understand he is mentally unwell and nothing I say will matter. This is how my whole marriage was. Cold and distant.
I did have a friend who turned out to be more than a friend ( dont worry I have since realized I am not ready) cuddle with me. He was sincere. That cuddling session without any strings felt like I hit the lottery. In 3 hours he showed me how special I am and I will eternally be grateful. He helped to give me something I couldnt give myself at the time.
Now I know I have a crack in my foundation and so meeting someone new would get me nowhere but it was the hope that I can be fulfilled and recover and make my dreams of a loving relationship become reality one day. In a healthy way.
So cheers to my AH for setting me free. 2 weeks has seemed like 2 years. I have my own life and I keep getting better every day. I have surgery tomorrow and was praying he didnt contact me. He didnt and I was surprised to see I didnt care. I was relieved to receive no "ping". I truly have moved on. I dont pray for him anymore. I pray for God's will. Here's to my start on a great life!!! Without an A....
Hugs Lulu
I did have a friend who turned out to be more than a friend ( dont worry I have since realized I am not ready) cuddle with me. He was sincere. That cuddling session without any strings felt like I hit the lottery. In 3 hours he showed me how special I am and I will eternally be grateful. He helped to give me something I couldnt give myself at the time.
Now I know I have a crack in my foundation and so meeting someone new would get me nowhere but it was the hope that I can be fulfilled and recover and make my dreams of a loving relationship become reality one day. In a healthy way.
So cheers to my AH for setting me free. 2 weeks has seemed like 2 years. I have my own life and I keep getting better every day. I have surgery tomorrow and was praying he didnt contact me. He didnt and I was surprised to see I didnt care. I was relieved to receive no "ping". I truly have moved on. I dont pray for him anymore. I pray for God's will. Here's to my start on a great life!!! Without an A....
Hugs Lulu
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