shelly009

This time for good. I quit drinking last June for about 2 months and thought I could go back to drinking one or two drinks every now and then.. and at first it worked but as you all know it didnt last long. Almost a year later to the day I am back where I was a year ago when I first came, drinking 3-4 days a week, sometimes by myself, always to get drunk (and SMOKING again dammit!!)

Anyway, lesson learned and I now know that I cannot drink and will never be able to. And to be honest, thats just fine with me.

I was looking back at old posts and remembering how great I felt for those 2 months that I quit last year and how much SR helped.

Thought I could do it on my own, now I realise that I cannot. I will be sticking around this time.

WakeUp

Good for you shelly. I always have to keep in the front of my mind, "I will never be able to drink normally again."

least

Welcome back! Always good to see someone trying sobriety again. It really rocks!

Starburst

Hi and welcome back, we all need some support. I think if we have made the choice not to drink, then even one is too many. I am sure you will be much better this time. Keep posting. You can do it!

traderjane

Welcome back, Shelly!!!

StevenD

Welcome back Shelly - You can do it!!

Kmber2010

Glad to see you are back. Take it one day at time. You can do this and admitting that you can never drink again is huge. I relapsed too and stopped posting because I went back to drinking thinking I could handle it. I was good to go. Yeah.....that good old alcoholic thinking again.

At it again myself which will hopefully be the last time I have at the quit drinking thing because I am certain next time I won't be alive. Almost killed me on that last bender.

Huggs and way to go on getting sober friend. We are here for you!!!

Anna

Welcome back, Shelly!

Knowing that drinking is not an option can be very freeing.

artsoul

hi shelly - nice to meet you! I can relate to you post. When we're sober, we feel strong and smart again. So we say to ourselves "THIS TIME I can handle it." It took me many tries to realize no matter how much or little I drank I always wanted more. Trying to moderate is like walking a tightrope - it takes all our energy and strength to stay on that little tiny wire. It's such a relief to step off onto solid ground again.

Glad you came back - you can do it this time!

Dee74

Welcome back Shelly - I wondered where you'd got to

I agree with Anna - when you really understand and accept that drinking is no longer an option it can be very freeing...it was like a great weight was lifted off me....

I'm glad you're back on the right track, Shelly

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shelly009

Thanks everyone!! I am happy to be back to!

loveon2legs

Hi Shelly!!! Welcome Back!! I'm fairly new here, I've been sober 134 days!! what a great group of people we have, they have all helped me immensley!! I can see why you would come back!!
I've quit a billion times too..or just "slowed down" ...cut back...then like you back to the same old same old.... Back in January i was arrested for DUI after one of my many attempts to control my drinking...I know now there is no amount of alcohol that is safe for me!! I LOVE being sober!! I LOVE the person who I am without booze!! feels so free!! and now that I have this taste of this new wonderful life..I NEVER want to go back.. !!!

I'm looking forward to being a part of your journey Shelly!!

Taking5

Welcome home.

vegibean

Welcome back shelly009!!

HumbleBee

Glad you're back, Shelly!

Life is a continual series of lessons, I think.

I learned the same thing you did about not being able to do this alone.

And along the way have discovered that not only can I not do this alone; I don't want to do this alone.

I love that people here get me. Glad you're here cuz we get you, too.:ghug3