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With seriousness this time. Long story longer… Was untruthful about usage here (not sure why)… Relationship problems, clinic problems, confrontation from husband, mother, friends and doctor (believes I have or am damaging my heart), was put ‘under supervision’ for missing too many AM clinic sessions (sleeping in the library)… A patient of mine noticed shaky hands… I had no acceptable explanation bc “I drink too much” wouldn’t cut it… enough is enough because I can’t risk dental school and being $200,000 in debt w no way to pay it back… diagnosed with alcohol dependence and stopped drinking March 19, went through about 6 days of moderate withdrawal, still have insomnia and mood swings.
MD started me on Naltrexone for the cravings, meds for the insomnia (which I went off because of sleepwalking) and hypertension (AT 30!!!) etc but still doesn’t alleviate these things completely. Drank on April 21 and 22 because I had a project due that I could NOT focus on bc alcohol would not get out of my head! Stopped again until May 11 (testing the Naltrexone that I started last week of April) and have not had a drink since.
Realized how stupid it was to get into the habit of daily drinking for 5 yrs.. daily binge level drinking for 2 years. Husband has VERY helpful and stopped drinking altogether and dumped all the alcohol in our apartment (for the 3rd - and last?- time)
Joined some other forums but they are not as active and so somewhat ineffective. Just back and reading and doing some more advice seeking
MD started me on Naltrexone for the cravings, meds for the insomnia (which I went off because of sleepwalking) and hypertension (AT 30!!!) etc but still doesn’t alleviate these things completely. Drank on April 21 and 22 because I had a project due that I could NOT focus on bc alcohol would not get out of my head! Stopped again until May 11 (testing the Naltrexone that I started last week of April) and have not had a drink since.
Realized how stupid it was to get into the habit of daily drinking for 5 yrs.. daily binge level drinking for 2 years. Husband has VERY helpful and stopped drinking altogether and dumped all the alcohol in our apartment (for the 3rd - and last?- time)
Joined some other forums but they are not as active and so somewhat ineffective. Just back and reading and doing some more advice seeking
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Join Date: Jun 2009
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Thank you everyone for the warm welcome. Good to see you all. The problem now is that quitting drinking has kicked my internet use into high gear. I cannot seem to get off of it for any length of time while I am at home. I have limited to no motivation to do anything including clean this place or other hobbies I once had long ago. Now instead of getting irritated when my husband bothers me while drinking, I get irritated when he interrupts my online sessions.... so we try to get out of the house a lot these days and I try to volunteer my time a lot but I can't seem to help myself when we are inside. It is great for getting my mind off of things too... can't help but think its just a substitution and now I have to cut that down too.
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Join Date: May 2010
Location: New Hampshire, USA
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Substitutes are part of quitting for most everyone: candy, soda, meetings, exercise, SR, whatever. It doesn't matter, as long as you don't drink. You can deal with cutting back on the substitutes some other time. Just don't drink: nothing else matters early on. I'd also say go to meetings, but that's optional, I reckon, for some. You sound like a smart person; I'm a smart person too - but I'm recovering anyway: lol. That's where the "keep it simple" comes in.
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Join Date: Jun 2009
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Norther, I guess you are right. There are just so many other things I would like to be doing and then I just dont LOL Seems ridiculous and I can't even explain it.
THanks for the reply.
THanks for the reply.
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Join Date: Apr 2010
Location: Mississippi
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Nice to meet you Laura! I agree with Norther - whatever works....! This place has saved my sanity (if not my life). I can relate to the lack of motivation/energy, but after 2 weeks, I found I really wanted to start cleaning/working again. I'm sure it will happen for you too. Hang in there!
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