LeaA

I woke up this morning with a terrible headache. Actually I realized I had a headache because my BF's alarm was going off and I woke up. It was really early and neither he or I had anyplace to be. Why he sets this alarm so early every day I have no idea.

I asked him to turn it off...he said no. He sets the snooze and it keeps going off every two minutes. It is so incessant that I actually dreamed about the sound while I was lying there. I told him I had a terrible headache he made some "noise" like "awwww" in a mocking way to make fun of me. I asked him again several times. I told him he was being abusive and he said "using an alarm clock is not abuse".

I asked him again to turn his alarm off and he began yelling "Be quiet" at me and "stop talking"

I started to cry thinking about my father and how I wish he were here and not dead. My boy "friend" made an exasperated noise and told me to go in the other room. Which is where I am now. He is still sleeping peacefully.

I would never have dated anyone this vicious and mean...but it seems I do.

I am not sure if he just has constant hangovers in the morning or what....there really is no excuse.

Last night he was so drunk he got up and peed down the basement stairs. he is getting weirder everyday.

I feel very lonely and sad today already and it's not even 8:00 am. I wish I was not even here.

It's a lot everyday. It's hard to recover enough of yourself when you are treated so badly to even function. I have a cover letter to write today and more jobs to search for.

Thanks for listening,
LeaA

KeepPedaling

OMG. He sounds like a jerk. That alarm clock thing would **** me off.

Is your plan to move out once you get a job? Isn't there anywhere else you could stay? Your boyfriend sounds abusive.

I'm sorry you're going through this.

Still Waters

Why are you still there? Go to a shelter, go to a friends house, go to a relative.

Duped

Damn. You know it's a problem once they start peeing like an alley cat.

wanting

Once the pee problems start, you know you've stayed too long.

ItsmeAlice

You are worth so much more than this, my dear. So much more.

You are right that he has no excuse to treat you this way....no excuse.

There are many paths to exit this kind of abuse and they don't require you to have a job or any direction at all. You just have to reach your end and have the desire to want to leave.

When that times comes, you'll know it.

I hope that time is soon.

Alice

dollydo

It is not so much the circumstance(s) you are involved in.....it's how you handle them.

Questions you need to answer:

Why do I stay in this abusive relationship?

What are my options?

What do I want for me?

How am I going to move forward?

*****

If you do not have a plan, you plan to fail.

You deserve better.

Learn2Live

I only date men who pee only in toilets. The only exception might be if he's camping in the woods and there are no bathrooms there.

BumblingAlong

My ex once vomited in bed after a night of drinking red wine....unfortunately for me, he was facing my back when he erupted. I was covered. The scary part? He didn't wake up right away -- I had to shake him awake. So gross and so scary.

Jadmack25

My youngest (4 year old) grandson, can find the toilet during the night, and doesn't pee in places other than that, so YUKKY.

As for the alarm constantly going off......I know it would be me going off and I leave it to your imagination to guess where his alarm would have been shoved. NO...not the cupboard or robe.

Go to a shelter, anywhere you can, and get away from this man.

God bless