I am the parent
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I am the parent
I know some of you may scoff at this, but I think I"ve had a breakthrough in therapy, and it's all about that "I'm the parent taking care of my little kid," thing.
She said to me last session, "how can you remember that you're the adult and you are in charge and will take care of the little girl in you that's so scared?"
So I've been working on that, and it's freaking amazing. I had several meltdowns in the past week, but as soon as I do remember that I"m the adult, and start processing and problem solving, I feel better. It's really like a freaking miracle.
It's helping me with my parenting of my actual children too. Poor guys. They've had a crazy mommy for so long.
And my therapist asked me if I have filed for disability! PTSD is a freaking mental illness. I've been searching for help for so long. You guys helped me start to make sense of the alcoholism madness, and now she's helping me with the PTSD. That's good!
She said to me last session, "how can you remember that you're the adult and you are in charge and will take care of the little girl in you that's so scared?"
So I've been working on that, and it's freaking amazing. I had several meltdowns in the past week, but as soon as I do remember that I"m the adult, and start processing and problem solving, I feel better. It's really like a freaking miracle.
It's helping me with my parenting of my actual children too. Poor guys. They've had a crazy mommy for so long.
And my therapist asked me if I have filed for disability! PTSD is a freaking mental illness. I've been searching for help for so long. You guys helped me start to make sense of the alcoholism madness, and now she's helping me with the PTSD. That's good!
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Stlll Waters you CAN afford therapy! Make it happen. If that's what you want.
And it's real ugly most of the time. I'm very raw. But I'm figuring out which tools to use, when and where.
And it's real ugly most of the time. I'm very raw. But I'm figuring out which tools to use, when and where.
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Originally Posted by transformyself 
Stlll Waters you CAN afford therapy! Make it happen. If that's what you want.
And it's real ugly most of the time. I'm very raw. But I'm figuring out which tools to use, when and where.
And it's real ugly most of the time. I'm very raw. But I'm figuring out which tools to use, when and where.
It'll just have to wait.
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Ah Trans... I've had that same breakthrough with my counselor. It's truly amazing to think of yourself inside as someone you need to take care of. I was talking to my counselor once about something that had truly frightened me, and I just sat there and took it... nice, polite, stupid me. She asked me what I would have said and done had I been an adult and saw my frightened child beside me. Well... I would have whispered softly comforting words to her, taken her gently by the hand, taken her out of the room, and asked what was wrong, then asked her if she wanted to leave and go get some ice cream. Wonderful counselor suggested I treat myself that way. Talk about an AHA moment! I'm so glad your therapist is being awesome for you! And with regard to the PTSD, too! YAY for Transformie!!!!!
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