Erdedy

Five weeks ago today I took my last drink. I'm twenty-five and have gotten sober for over a year twice, relapsing twice, keeping it a secret both times from my sponsor and AA friends. When I finally got honest and started counting days again last year I made it to 90 days, but was mad at the world the entire time and felt like my life was cursed. I justified my relapse by telling myself that I was going to die eventually and there was no point denying myself the one thing that makes me happy (amazing the thoughts a diseased mind is capable of). October was drinking, November and December was daily Marijuana Maintenance. In January I found out my brother was ill and took off to the races, getting drunk around the clock whenever I could. Finally, at the end of March, on the 28th, I was shaking on my mattress at 3AM and said to myself "I need to go back to AA." Just the sound of me saying the words gave me such relief. Knowing that I could get my life back and that this crazy slide could stop in an instant if I just let it.

I'm so glad to be back in the meetings in the program and I'm glad I found this forum to get connect with other sobers from around the world. Hope everyone's having a great day.

least

Congrats on five weeks sober! That's a great start to a better sober life.

Dee74

Congratulations on 5 weeks Erdedy
Welcome to SR!

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Anna

I'm glad you found us!

Richard54

Erdedy that's fantastic I'm going through much the same at the moment. Good luck you CAN do it !