Hey my friends
Hey my friends
Just wanted to update because I havent posted in a while......
well I am doing better but not where I need to be. I really dont know what to say. I have cut back to a few beers a day but that isnt where I want to be. I feel pretty good, life is going good. But I want to quit!! I guess I am scared of the unknown- I work very effectively at least 50 usually more hours a week but what is this monkey on my back. Useless post, just wanted to touch base.
Peace and Serenity to you all
Dub
well I am doing better but not where I need to be. I really dont know what to say. I have cut back to a few beers a day but that isnt where I want to be. I feel pretty good, life is going good. But I want to quit!! I guess I am scared of the unknown- I work very effectively at least 50 usually more hours a week but what is this monkey on my back. Useless post, just wanted to touch base.
Peace and Serenity to you all
Dub
Dub, good to hear you are doing well & almost there. What do you think you need to do to get yourself 100% on this one. It must be agonizing to be so close but feel so far from the great feeling of beating this demon.
Come on Dub, cross the finish line & win. You will feel so much better about yourself for this achievement, you deserve it.
A few beers here & there just isnt worth the pain.
Take Care,
NB
Come on Dub, cross the finish line & win. You will feel so much better about yourself for this achievement, you deserve it.
A few beers here & there just isnt worth the pain.
Take Care,
NB
I have no idea
I am reading books, working my butt off, and I can't shake it. I really dont want to hit a bottom because I dont think I have yet- that is what sucks. I really just want to put this behind me. but it is yet to happen. Alcohol has done nothing for my life but medicated me- most of the time when I didn't need medication. Well- I know this is a selfish post.
God bless you all
Dub
God bless you all
Dub
love ya dub and i have wondered how you've been doing. sounds like things are somewhat better. that would be a good thing. i can tell you from my experience that the real change, the real growth and freedom and happiness could only occur after i ceased using all mind altering substances entirely. you say you want to stop drinking so why don't you do it? are you willing to do whatever it takes to stop drinking? once you reach that place of willingness the process or recovery can truly begin. all the best to you man.
love ya dub and i have wondered how you've been doing. sounds like things are somewhat better. that would be a good thing. i can tell you from my experience that the real change, the real growth and freedom and happiness could only occur after i ceased using all mind altering substances entirely. you say you want to stop drinking so why don't you do it? are you willing to do whatever it takes to stop drinking? once you reach that place of willingness the process or recovery can truly begin. all the best to you man.
Peace and Calmness to all
Dub
I work very effectively at least 50 usually more hours a week but what is this monkey on my back.
I don't know if this is happening to you with "a few beers a day", but when I tried it, I noticed that I had all the same negative effects from low volume drinking as I did from high volume drinking.
Even if I meticulously spaced out my alcohol units and kept the total daily number at a reasonable level, much lower than my usual drink-to-get-drunk level, I felt just as horrible emotionally.
With "just" 2 to 4 beers a day, I still had morning anxiety, mental obsession, (it's 2 hours, 22 minutes and 14 seconds till my next beer.....), remorse, guilt, lack of interest in life, and my entire day was reduced to focusing on when I could pop the top on the next one!
I was astonished to see that changing the volume didn't make any difference. All the negative effects happened whether it was one beer, or 10.
Even if I meticulously spaced out my alcohol units and kept the total daily number at a reasonable level, much lower than my usual drink-to-get-drunk level, I felt just as horrible emotionally.
With "just" 2 to 4 beers a day, I still had morning anxiety, mental obsession, (it's 2 hours, 22 minutes and 14 seconds till my next beer.....), remorse, guilt, lack of interest in life, and my entire day was reduced to focusing on when I could pop the top on the next one!
I was astonished to see that changing the volume didn't make any difference. All the negative effects happened whether it was one beer, or 10.
I don't know if this is happening to you with "a few beers a day", but when I tried it, I noticed that I had all the same negative effects from low volume drinking as I did from high volume drinking.
Even if I meticulously spaced out my alcohol units and kept the total daily number at a reasonable level, much lower than my usual drink-to-get-drunk level, I felt just as horrible emotionally.
With "just" 2 to 4 beers a day, I still had morning anxiety, mental obsession, (it's 2 hours, 22 minutes and 14 seconds till my next beer.....), remorse, guilt, lack of interest in life, and my entire day was reduced to focusing on when I could pop the top on the next one!
I was astonished to see that changing the volume didn't make any difference. All the negative effects happened whether it was one beer, or 10.
Even if I meticulously spaced out my alcohol units and kept the total daily number at a reasonable level, much lower than my usual drink-to-get-drunk level, I felt just as horrible emotionally.
With "just" 2 to 4 beers a day, I still had morning anxiety, mental obsession, (it's 2 hours, 22 minutes and 14 seconds till my next beer.....), remorse, guilt, lack of interest in life, and my entire day was reduced to focusing on when I could pop the top on the next one!
I was astonished to see that changing the volume didn't make any difference. All the negative effects happened whether it was one beer, or 10.
Love to all
Dub
Hi Dub! I think you sound ready to rid yourself of this poison. I hope you'll give your body a chance to heal, and enjoy your life again without the stress that drinking brings to it. I'm always glad to see you posting, though - no matter what.
Keep at it Dub. You can do this but it will take the final toss of the booze and no looking back to reach sobriety.
I have you in my thoughts but the initial withdrawal period may be rough. You know its right there within your grasp.
God Bless and keep on posting. I want to read about the sober Dub!! Routing for ya friend!
I have you in my thoughts but the initial withdrawal period may be rough. You know its right there within your grasp.
God Bless and keep on posting. I want to read about the sober Dub!! Routing for ya friend!
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